Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Mental Note

http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/on-writing-stephen-king/1100630876?ean=9781439156810&itm=1&usri=on%2bwriting

Apparently I should read this book.

Found from this website.

http://community.sparknotes.com/2011/08/17/dans-advice-for-aspiring-writers

Sunday, August 21, 2011

In the Belly of the Beast

Controlled Chaos.

I did not fully understand the concept until yesterday. I confronted controlled chaos up close and a little too personal.

The Warped Tour.

It is a local collection of concerts in Saint Petersburg, Florida. Every year in Vinoy Park stages are set for the venue. Bands from across the globe are gathered to perform at the Warped Tour which showcases all these bands with multiple stages set across the park's grounds in an all day gauntlet.

I was not sure what I walked into when I purchased tickets to this event. My friend Gonzalo and my brother pushed me into going. I was forced, but they assured me that I would have an amazing time. I was still unsure.

So I tried to do some research about some of the groups that were attending this year. Most of the names I glanced over were bands I had never heard of. Some of the bands had names that seemed familiar, but I knew them by name alone. I found only three or four bands that I actually knew on the venue. Of those small list of recognizable bands, I really wanted to go see 'The Expendables' and 'Against Me'. The idea of going to this event started to churn in my head. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad. I had never been to a concert like this before. It was starting to sound actually...fun.

The day of the event, we drove together and met with our buddy Casey at the park. I made the mistake of wearing a black shirt on a wonderful, 90+ degree day. Upon exiting the car, instant sweat. Mistake number one. Luckily I had an undershirt on that I could remove. Thankfully my shirt was sleeveless which helped air things out. Still, this was a premonition of things to come. Today was going to be a hot muggy mess.

The three of us did our ritual hot-boxing before anything and went on our high, merry way. You know, when you are blitzed out of your mind, the heat doesn't bother you that much. I guess that could be good or bad depending on your perspective, but alas, we were off to have a grand time. Hopefully no one would have a heat stroke!

Gonzalo and Stephen got a map of where the best bands were playing and at what times. Each had their own agenda of who to see, but both made it clear, they wanted to reconvene at the 'Dance Gavin Dance' show. The two couldn't agree on some of the early performers, but Gonzalo insisted I go with him to the watch 'The Devil Wears Prada.' I obliged.

This band seemed to have one of the larger crowds gathering. I wasn't ready for what I was about to undertake. The scene seemed calm enough at first. Everyone was relaxing, staring at the empty stage. The band was late. The time that they were supposed to start came and went, as more people started to flock around the elevated circuit. Me and Gonzalo were just spectating all the queer attendees at this conglomeration of masses. From behind, someone grabbed my butt; it felt more like a pinch. I turned around and there were two girls standing behind us. Gonzalo didn't notice and they weren't paying us any mind, so I brushed it off. A few seconds later I was pinched in my bum again. I turned around and saw one of the girls who wasn't bad looking staring at me, giggling.

Just then there was movement in front of us. Before I could do anything about the ass grabber, the collection of people started to swarm and gather as close to the stage as possible. Me and Gonzalo were ushered in, like a powerful wave had picked us up and was edging closer to the front. There was nothing he or I could do. If we didn't move, we would likely get trampled.

The band was starting to walk onto the stage.

The crowed roared with excitement. It was a deep, foreboding sound. We were now in a tightly packed group of human body parts all group together in an uncomfortable amalgamation. That all ended once the band started playing.

It was pure chaos. Everyone all at once started to disperse, jump around, run like mad people and flair their appendages like they had to regard for themselves or anyone around them. As I was soaking all this madness up, another crazy event started to unfold; the mosh pit was starting to form. As close as everyone was, like a colony of ants, everyone moved in unison to open up a hole in the middle of the crowd. I swear to you, I could feel the atmosphere start to change inside this insanity. I started to see rocks on the ground start to shift like an episode of Dragon Ball Z. I had never seen anything like this before.

Gonzalo started to gravitate towards the mosh pit. I followed suit. I was pretty nervous about this whole ordeal...but I was high. What's the worst thing that could happen? Just as I was thinking these thoughts in my head, I looked over and noticed a girl contemplating the same thing I was; jumping into this mess. She was swinging her arms, like she was preparing to jump into a bought of double dutch, waiting for the perfect time to fly and and let the maelstrom sweep her away.

I shit you not, the second....THE SECOND this girl actually attempted to join the pit, a flying elbow came in and wrecked her life. She crumpled to the ground like a wet paper bag. Holy balls I felt bad for her...but I wasn't going to go over there and check on her. This was bedlam. It almost seemed as if people were intentionally trying to punch and kick people. Before I knew it I jumped into the mosh pit and started running.

So, if you didn't know, a mosh pit is something that starts at concerts where a bunch of strangers start to run around in a circular fashion to the beat of the music playing...somewhat.

So here I am, Gonzalo is gone; all by myself in this mosh pit of madness. The music that was playing seemed to possess the miscreants in the vortex. I had my hands up in a defensive manner as I ran in circles. It seemed like these people had murderous intent as they almost hunted to hurt people in the circle. It was crazy...but I couldn't stop running.

Despite all this foolishness, I was surprisingly was having fun. I was a free spirit among a sea of rabid monstrous beings. It was almost like a football field. I was evading would-be tacklers as I dodged and weaved between the menacing, mindless neanderthals. You could say I was having the time of my life. Perhaps it was the drugs, perhaps it was my heightened adrenaline pumping through my body, perhaps the music was mesmerizing me as well, my journey didn't stop until the song did.

The band played a couple more times and I evaded the rush like Mike Vick in his prime. I saw plenty of people go down with injuries, self inflicted or otherwise. I was one of the lucky ones. I eventually found Gonzalo too. He had the same look of joy and awareness in his eyes that I assume I had. We both survived the first wave of pandemonium.

It was only 10:00am.

More bands came and went. We saw the Expendables singer shave his epic beard. We re-upped on Mary Jane by randomly running into an old friend. We saw a man in a white outfit, ruin said digs due to having his own blood covering and likely ruining it in the process.

We participated in some more mosh pits as a group. I forget which band did it, but they opened up the mosh pit to a giant arena setting and made it a mosh obstacle course. I remember someone actively chasing me during this marathon. Someone tried to go low on me and take out my legs. I mentioned it felt like football earlier, right?

The sun set on the event and by the end of the this trip, the lot of us were both exhausted and fulfilled. I was glad I went out of my comfort zone and participated in this spectacle. I doubt I will ever experience something so bizarre and twisted again. It was scary at times, but fighting that fear brought an untold amount of bliss that will hard to replicate.

Controlled chaos indeed.


Monday, August 1, 2011

LJ40

"It has begun!"

I was bequeathed "Hitstick"

Number 80 in the lords army......

LJ39

My computer sucks, so I haven't bothered to be around it recently..

I dunno when the last time I updated was, but whatever.......

My comp has a bug and none of my scanners can find it or get rid of it......fun

I have had a fun time uninstalling most of my programs to see if that would help, but no...that just left my computer slow and without anything.......

*twitch*

........as I write this part of the bug mocks me, as a pop up fills the screen....mocking me.......taunting my lame ass computer....very annoying.

ok.....so what has happened to me as of late?

Well before my trip, I went to Hyde Park Cafe with Steven and Danny for some Halloween party. I dressed up as a priest, Steve was Ron Burgondy, and Danny was a Doctor.

WE pre-drank at someones house. This was the first time I had been drinking in some time. Man, do I love this holiday. Girls always make me happy as they dress up in very revealing and slutty costumes. It is their excuse to look as sexy as possible, and I have no problem with it. =)

The night was fun, I ran into some flings from my past at the cafe. I saw Linnet (GOOD LORD!) Karla and Jamile. They all looked very pretty, but Linnet had always seemed very beautiful to me, to bad it seemed as if she were there with someone, ah well. I danced with Jamile's drunk ass and made Karla jealous at the same time, good times.

I was going to Tally to visit AJ. Plus Ravi, our good friend, who had been on a ship in the Navy for like 8 months was visiting.....

wow what the hell did they do to LJ, I feel lost.....

anyways Chris came along and my friends Andre rode up with us for a free ride....

The trip wasn't bad, we mostly listened to Dance Cook as he made the time fly by. Tally...is a fun place. I like going there, don't like the trip though. I always have to drive and it is very bothersome. However every time I go there, I have a good time, unlike Gville.

Ravi didn't get there till night time. We waited for him to eat, but by the time he arrived he had already done so. Like the innocent baby he acted like, we all just brushed it off, giggled and ate at village inn.

We went to some girls house that night, drinking of course....

Watching Ravi drink is like seeing the Hulk transform. It's funny, but he has an angry side that he always lets loose at some random person. At one point in the night he threw me to the floor and wrestled me, he also threw a chair in a pool nearby. As I said before, good times.

In the end no one got hurt and we all had a smile on our face as we left. It had been a long time since we saw Ravi last, it just felt good to see his goofy ass again.

Day two was just us going to local comic stores and the mall, nothing exciting. At night we all got dressed up in our costumes. Ravi was a cowboy, AJ was a ninja, I was a priest again, and Chris..........well he was a Gay/French thief (bwa hahaha) If he knew how gay he looked he wouldn't have left the house, so we as the good friends we are, lied to him.

The party we went to had a nice assortment of fine looking gals. I was Ravi's wing man, not that I did a good job. We should have brought a camera, so many titties, my mind can't remember them all. Nothing else really came from that night, my dumbassed'ness prolly denied my self from getting some cowgirl ass, but that is another story left untold....

and, just as soon as the trip had started, the trip ended. The fact that "someone" had backed into my car didn't even seem to bother me.

Ravi's boat was docked in Jacksonville and his family lives in Tampa, so he was going to be in town for a whole week. And if that meant anything it meant this.....there was to be little to no sleep and study for my future.

Which held true...

Monday we tried to go out, but since we had to accommodate with Dan, we didn't do anything I had mentioned and instead wasted the night looking for something to do.

Tuesday was...meaningless visit to Chris' house playing games all the live long night...we played football as well.

Wednesday was Hardrock, where all of of came out on the losing end of the Hold em table. The only redeeming factor of that night was that I met up with Daniel Garber, who always seems to make me smile with his gay tendencies.

Thursday was us looking all night long for a place with lit up courts for some Basketball..

Friday was us going to Channelside, which was fun. I met a lady who was getting married on Sunday heh heh, who said I was the light of her night. I feel bad for the husband. =)

Saturday I went out yet again, this time with Gomez and Steve, but it was much the same. Got pretty drunk, this time I met up with a very attractive lady who I was talking with for awhile, I can't remember much of the conversation, but I know she was trying to get me to do something, and I was trying for her to do the same thing. The event led in just a simple innocent kiss on the cheek for me, another lost opportunity. =(

Sunday we relaxed and watched the fag ass gay shit dumb nut heads Bucs lose at Gomez's house..

and that is that.......

LJ38

"The weekend ends here."

Gainesville

A town that never upsets.

A town where the old rule for Vegas gets applied. What goes on there, stays there. A town I usually love since I get shit faced drunk and fun sexy things always seem to happen.

The same was going to happen this weekend......right?

The trip was me Steven and Stephen (Gonzalo's nephew or something. Notice how I spell the names as the story might get confusing if you don't.) It was mostly a relaxed ride. I drove, we took Steven's car. It drizzled and I got a little distorted, I do not like driving other peoples cars, especially when it rains. But, we put in some Dane Cook and laughed all the way there. Gomez kept on calling us with some auto voice teller mumbo jumbo....whatever.

We finally GET there, and he isn't answering his phone. heh The door was unlocked, since everyone else seemed shy to walk into his house without him opening the door I walked up to his room. I found him in his bed, passed out. I thought he was just sleeping, however I noticed his eyes. They were open, but he was snoring. I threw my phone at him and he didn't even stir. His looked groggy as hell, and there were beer bottles all around. It was like eight o clock. This moron was drunk off his ass, passed out semi naked. I yelled for awhile and finally got the lush to get out of his bed. He got ready and we went out to some club called Froggies.

This gawd damn place was the whitest place I had ever been to. Live band, not even one fucking guy with a guitar playing the whitest music ever. Men were hugging and doing all sorts of gay shit and I wasn't drinking. Steven and Stephen weren't having fun either. A white club isn't all that fun for a couple of Latinos. Although Gonzalo was enjoying himself enough, the damn guy was at it again, drinking his ass off.

Didn't seem we were there that long before the club closed down. I didn't know how to get back to the car, Gomez said he did, so we followed the drunk ass down the streets.

We pass this group of guys Gomez walks past one guy. The guy elbows Gomez, Gomez elbows back and the guy elbows him again! Gonzalo stops and almost gets into a huge fight with these group of four white boys. He shoves one and the bitch didn't do anything. Gonzalo at this point was going crazy, cause he wanted him to do something. I had to hold him back, drunks aren't too hard to keep at bay. The cops started to come since we apparently were starting a scene. We got Gomez and hauled ass. While we were walked a group of black guys (seriously like 15 of them) surrounded us. I could see that Steven was getting real scared, he was trying to walk around them, but they were everywhere. They said that they had our backs and that they were waiting for the white boys to throw a punch so they could whoop some ass. These guys were funny, they were from Mississippi. They were pretty cool, but we were all hungry and we still needed to find the car.

Driving, we had just ordered some pizza so by the time we get home we can eat. We had a strong case of the munchies. All of a sudden some car drives next to us and starts talking mad shit. They say something about wanting to fight, this got Gonzalo all excited. He wanted me to follow them wherever. We get to a red light and the white boy jumps out of his car and Gonzalo follows suit. This couldn't end up good. The guys GF jumps out of the car and gets in front of Gonzalo. The guy uses this to sucker punch Gomez. He goes over his girl and hits Gonzalo in the face. Gomez drops to the floor and then another guy comes out of the car, jumps on Gomez and starts hitting him...........

This happened so fast, I was in the driver seat. When Gomez fell, I put the car in park and fought with my seat belt for a second before I bolted out of the car. I bum rushed the skinny guy on Gomez who when I picked him up he hit me on the side of the face. I picked his ass up and threw him against his car. He tried to get around me, but he wasn't going to be able to. Stephen had also jumped out of the car and swung on one of the guys, but his girl got in the way and he hit her on accident. AGAIN the cops were coming so we got Gomez and got the hell out of there. The white boys threw their licks and hauled ass......pussies. I won't even get into how fucking stupid it was for Gonzalo to get out of the car, but yeah...he was drunk and not in the best condition to fight. His eye was bleeding, what a waste.

We get home and Gomez says he is dizzy and goes upstairs to sleep. We later find out he said he thinks he he got a concussion. It was stupid all his friends from Gville said we were pussies cause we didn't do anything.......

Oh, that;s right. if we didn't DO anything Gonzalo would have gotten a lot more fucked up then what he got. I took a fucking hit for him, plus I lost my damn earrings during the skirmish. And these assholes were calling me a Pussy? Fuck that I was looking out for my friend who was ON THE FLOOR NOT MOVING!

Saturday we couldn't go clubbing cause Gomez was feeling dizzy and his eye was all bruised up. Instead we went house party hoping where everyone babied him about his eyes. Again another un fun night. We actually went to a party where the PARENTS were there.....

this wasn't the Gville I was used to.

Sunday we just watches the game, Bucs lost, Phins lost.....Kain lost in the DL......Pats won...

all in all, this weekend fucking sucked........

LJ37

going to gville for the week

Colin will be there

as will my friends Gary and Joey

We are staying with Gomez and going to tailgate Saturday during the game.

fun times ahead.

LJ36

"Reflections"

- Quince's are horribly gay times that I enjoy very much, the one that counted the most I missed.

- Coach Carter. The kid should have kissed the girl, he will remember that for a long time.

- I have had horrible dates on both Fast/Furious movies. First one I went on a date with one very slutty girl, and her....BROTHER!

- Homecoming, took the wrong girl.

- Prom, once again!

- I have been a good friend, even though I am a lying manipulative Cuban...I still think I have been good to them........

- For the most part I have grown up without a father figure. I use that excuse when getting dressed I need help tieing a tie.

- I have always considered myself the third best dancer of the suaves. I haven't had a dance partner for quite some time.

- I hate Animenation, although I happen to thank it for giving me such a gay assortment of internet friends.

- Otakus are the scum of the earth and bathe in scum so they can be called scum. Good lord they smell like an ass full of swamp.

- The gay ghetto thief lives on, I just stole yer shoes while you were reading this.

- I love every person that reads this.

- Love you so much.

- Please kiss me.

- So I know we both are feeling the moment.

LJ35

"Mmm Mmm Bitch!"

hahaha Quince night

Jessy was there, so was my Tia Sally. And I wasn't drinking. This could have been a long night. Well for once, the suaves weren't actually IN the quince. We sat down like normal people and enjoyed it. Danny came late, we all were fidgety about the Turkey Bowl. Steve, Gomez(who was wearing my shirt, and I didn't realize it), Glenn, Kenny, Braulio and myself were all talking of strategies for the game. Danny walked up and told us he wasn't even expecting to win(his church vs ours). We all about just laughed him out of the room.

Gawd we are cocky mo'fos.

Anyways....

Rachel, is a cool girl. I've seen her grow up and she is a fun person to mingle with.

I dunno, but some of her friends were looking pretty good.

.......

WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME!!!!

*cough*

Sally had never seen me dance, so I did grab Jessy, and like everything was fine I danced with her. Like butter. If I lost a step, it was replaced by a new one, we looked nsync like always.

Nothing special, just another dance night with the family.

We left and Gomez and Steve wanted to drink, so me being in my anti-drinking move, decided to be the DD for the first time since I care to remember. They got 30 beers, nothing to get anyone shit faced, but for us to relax and chill it was nice. Like usual we just sat and drank, talked of old times, and of all the stupid shit we have done, all the skanks in our life and all the ones that still waiting to become a memory for us.

The buzz'ies were starting to get hungry, so we did what we always did when we got Beer munchies. We drove to Village Inn. Another page in the suaves memory books, this place is like our safe haven when we are gone.

We got the usual, skillets all around. Of course, we were making fun of everyone around us, the drunkard Gomez is a hard ass who wants nothing more then someone to get in his face so he can fight. In any case, it was just fat old people, so no one bothered to say anything to us as we made fun of them. People left, we were still hungry after finishing our food. People left their food on the tables, untouched.......

oh yeah....

We vultured that shit.

Like champs.....

Hadn't been touched.......can't let food go to waste son!

......

we got to Gomez' house around five and had to go to Church at nine......

ugh

We stayed for awhile and ninja'd our way out early so we could eat and watch the Bucs game in peace.

Which by the way they won...

4-0 baby!

LJ34

Tonight is another quince

be it I have nothing better to do, I am looking forward to this.

Nothing, but young girls all ready to be amazed at my awesome dance moves?

SWOON!

Hell Yeah!

LJ33

"Are you ready?"

football? Silly me the season started over three weeks ago.

........

Oh!

I did happen to play a game last night. We were going to practice only, but nine people showed up. So we made a four on four tackle game instead, Steve was the all time QB.

Well.......

I didn't know how I was going to perform during this game. I had been running for a little over two weeks now, I hoped my conditioning was paying off.

It was......or so these sorry ass people I was playing against made it seem.

We played first to six points wins.

Our 1st drive, 4th down Steve lobs it to me, TD.

2nd, Steve does a flea flicker to Glenn, everyone is faked out. Steve throws the ball which is under thrown, caught by me, TD.

3rd, I am supposed to run a slant route. The play goes off and I burn the defender, I just take off for the end zone. Steve actually throws a good pass to catch me in stride, TD.

Their driving, I jump in front of a pass to Luisito, Interception ran back for a TD.

Glenn pounds it in to score once for us.

and finally, the team wanted someone else to get a TD, so I suggest a run for one of the big guys. The play gets broken and turns into a pass somehow. I was going to block so I stayed short and Steve threw me the ball. Looked like a Patriot play(fucking patriots). I turned around and broke like every man on their team's tackle and ran it the whole field to score.

......

So we played up to six, I scored five of the TDs.

Everyone think s I am ready for the Turkey Bowl, but I can't stop running now.

This was just a warm up.

LJ32

Took care of Anthony's house again...

my payment?

A 24 pack of Miller lights! (score)

Colin is gonna be in Largo this weekend, I wonder if I will manage to see him or not.

Friday Gomez is coming down from Gville to celebrate his 21st Bday, that will be a glorious night of drinking and random events.

Running by myself is boring, but I won't stop. I really have something top prove to myself...

LJ31

Yeah.......been meaning to do one of these for some time now.......

Did I mention how completely gay school is?

Or that next semester I need to think about transferring so I can actually use this free money wisely.

hmmmm

AJ is seriously thinking of moving somewhere around here, and wants me and this fag.....(faggot fuck) Chris to shack up together.

Me, however feel that it may not be the best idea for me already looming college future.

I have started to run everyday....week day that is.........um after classes and right before I have to go to work.

I still want to get a rountine going...something so that I know how I will be running for that day and I have a goal......need a goal...indeedlydoo.

.....hmmm (at Al Lopez)

Monday - start the week off with a mild job around the park followed by a half walk half jog and then another full jog, 3 laps. Should take a lil under an hour.

I do however have the tendency to half ass things when I am alone. But, I need to get back into shape for this TurkeyBowl coming up.

Tuesday - walk halfway then jog, try to job another lap and finish with a walk then jog.....3 laps

Did I mention this park is huge? 3 laps may seem small, but...if you think otherwise....I'll kill you.

Wednesday - walk a lap, then do spurts from light post to light post of full all out sprints stopping between each then taking off again at the next one.......er this seems like it will take more out of me. I will try 2 laps of this, so....bleh 3 laps anyways.

Thursday - Finish off the week (forget me doing anything friday, no school = no work...except work. Also the day for me to finish up all my HW and studying so I don't have to cram at weekends.) with a slightly fast job the 1st lap then a regualr jog and try to run/sprint the last one as far as I can manage.....I know this one I will need to work on......

BUT

I have until Thanksgiving...so I have time.....I hope....

I need to stay committed! >_>

Goodnight!

LJ30

"bleh"

One thing that that irks me the most in life is........

when friends of mine do not get along with other friends of mine. It's like a fear I have, I would want everyone I know to get along (Tenkai star bitches) but like people judge people way too damn easy.

like for instance.......

today I invited my friend Derik to a chat today who Chris and Dan were in. They play WoW with me and I got Derik to play as well. They wanted to know what he was like, and I feel I shouldn't need to hide anything.

I told them he has a Swastika hat/cap. Chris instantly says that he has placed judgement on the guy and that if he ever met him he might blah blah, but like seriously Chris totally zoned in on one aspect of a friend of mine and after he heard that he didn't want anything to do with him. (saying he was gonna kick him from the guild, yada yada)

In the chat (now, Derik, for what it's worth is a very hard 1st impression) asked if anyone in the chat was Jewish...AS A JOKE (I think) after he says that Dan signs off, telling me afterwards what a fag my friend was, also not wanting anything to do with him.

judgmental people................very annoying

very hard to group up sets of friends, every0one is always so picky (AJ and Josh)

you can never please everyone sadly......though I try my hardest to.........

I wish they would be nice to Derik, he hasn't done anything to them........it also pisses me off.


also, this also works in my fear of my Online friends(er no better name) meeting with my Tampa Friends.

The people I met online who I have grown strong bonds with, meeting my childhood, lifelong friends.

Their meeting, gawd knows what will happen, but I am doubtful. The two vary so much in taste and style, people from what I can estimate will not click and then people will talk behind backs......

will not want to hang out together........

and in the long run try to force me to choose one group over the other.....

but that is all in my highly time spaced mind, (I'm sleepy)

in other news........

Brandon hates me and my fucking foot STILL hurts!

LJ29

"Smooth mama jama"

Yeah..

so anyways I stepped on a nail yesterday. That was fun, I went and cleaned it out. No big deal.

It was in the back of my heel, kinda hurt, but for the little pain it gave off I was able to limp around and continue what I was doing.

The pain wasn't so bad.

So then I'm off of work and I decide to go watch Berserk with Chris and Dan, who by the way turn the most beautiful thing into a walking joke.

Chris doesn't like American voice acting, which boggles my mind. I don't see how people could possibly like Japanese voice acting over american, unless for the sake of them trying to dramatasize ho0w good they Jap-os do compared to Americans, anyways.......

we play smash 1st and then when everyone is good and tired, we watch Berserk........2 eps

it wasn't enough to quenech my Berserk thirst, but Chris was commenting on how horrid a job the American VAs were doing compared to the Jap-os......

cause I guess people like to not understand something and would rather read it and just assume they know how to act, where as when you here english dialog you can hear all the emotions the VAs say and can point out misplaced feelings.

whatever.........it really does bother me.

so yeah, I go to get up, since my foot hadn't really bother me since I had a nail in it.

Yeah, insane pain my my membrane! The pain I guess, instead of going away decided to sneak up on me and almost make me buckle when I stood up.

No big deal, I just sorta limped away with most my weight on my left foot.

Sleep, when I wake up I get out of bed and fall to the floor, the pain, yet again has increased, now to the point where any pressure on that foot causes sorrow.

Hurts I have to lean my way across my house to get to things.....can't put any weight on this foot now.

Today is going to be fun!

LJ28

"The Lackshmana Luck Test"

Has anyone ever watched anything and really liked a character as your favorite, then just when you start to like them.........the die?

Well, I just so happen to have a friend who is so lucky to have this happen to anything he watches.

Thy name is AJ.

Thy will be done, God has bestowed upon me.....

(...........er I think it was AJ himself, but he seems above me.)

a test for the ages, to see if anyone has ass bad of luck with picking favorite peeps like the man they call Lacks.

.......but, no one ever calls him Lacks......

anyways, I give you the Lackshmana Luck Test.

All you have to do is name yer favorite character from each series on this list and if EVERY one of yer favorite characters dies, then....well, I pity yer soul.

1. Full Metal Alchemist
2. DragonBall Z
3. Troy
4. Reign the Conquerer
5. KoToR
6. X-Men
7. Rurouni Kenshin
8. Gundam Seed
9. Seven Samurai
10. Lord of the Rings
11. Trigun
12. Beast Wars
13. Dynasty Warriors
14. Evangelion
15. Lodoss War
16. Escaflowne
17. Cowboy Bebop
18. Star Wars (Original)
19. Star Wars (Prequel)
20. Spiderman
21. Exo Squad
22. Final Fantasy 7
23. Mortal Kombat
24. Gundam

..........er, I think that's it.

and I am sure if I made a mistake thy wrath shall fall harshly upon me.

Enjoy

LJ27

"Here's an invention for ya. It's called a razor."

".........too risky, I might start thinking of you and try to slit my wrist."

what a fun set of days.

We hung out with Danny again, finally.

The bitch almost got us killed while driving to some house, for some pre-partying drinking.

We get there and Kristen greets us, who I haven't seen in ages, she looks real nice......

......you know.....Nice.

We go upstairs and drink with Danny's GF and all of her girl friends.

Kristen, is all flirty with me.

When a girl shows me attention, I assume she is flirting with me

............

........DON'T JUDGE ME!

.....she feeds me a spoon full of pineapple that was carved and filled with rum.

....Mmmm Yummy.

The night is going great, everyone is doing their own thing.

We get ready to leave, everyone gets re-acquainted with old friends, getting numbers they didn't have before.

Kristen comes up to me, jokingly asking me if I wanted her number, which I already had.

She then was like, "Yeah, have yer number already too, I have you as "Ryan 2".

........my brother walks up behind us and does this.......

"Yeah, I have him in my phone as "Ryan F".......

he looks at me and says...

"Ryan Faggot!"

...Amazing

..........yeah....fun.....real fun, thanks Stephen!

We are driving home, now mind you, Danny isn't the smartest man alive. He wanted me to bring drinks in the car so we could be drinking b4 we had gotten to this place. So we get back in the car there is 2 cups full of Bacardi and coke. Plus, Danny had been drinking, in fact the only person who hadn't drank was my friend Steven, and he was riding Shotgun, Smart EH!?

Don't worry we have the mentality that nothing can harm us and we won't get caught with/for anything.

So anyways, long story short we get pulled over the the cops.

............did I mention Danny was drinking and driving, and wasn't driving his own car, AND he didn't have his license AND!!!!!!!! we had an open bottle of liquor in the damn car......

........so yeah, my brother hides the bottle of Bacardi under the chair, his feet are pressing it down there so in hopes the cops don't see it. Luckily I had drank the remaining 2 cups tat were in the car, so it SEEMED there was no alcohol in there......

They make Danny step out of the car and one talks to him, while the other interrogates Steven..

(Best friend SteVen, brother StePHen, KLOLOK thanks.)

My brother looks scared as sit, but isn't saying a word. I've drank so much I want to laugh, but something inside tells me, that isn't the best idea.

Danny gets back in the car and we leave............Scott free...

Did I mention that we get away with anything?

Yeah, after we start driving I bust out laughing.

No one else does.....

THEN

my brother reveals that he had...........weed in his pocket.

.........what a dumbass.

My god how the hell did we not all get arrested...

hahahahahahaha

..........Ryan Faggot...

ugh, what a great night.

LJ26

Life of the aquatic sense is drowning in boredom.

I have, how some may call it, a house that is that of a sweet ass bachelor pad.

All alone, full of food and liquor's.

Works been easy, the phone line and fax lines are down so I can't call anybody.

Though that also can be a bad thing.

People have come and visited me to help with the boredom.

but then the people leave, and the feeling comes back to haunt me.

Being alone is such a lonely feeling prolly the lonely'est of all the emotions, you could say.

.....

This sure is fun.

Right about now, whoever calls me with some sort of event that involves me leaving this house will sound ever so nice to my deteriorating imagination.

It's times like this, I wish i had the comfort of a lady so I could rest my weary mind between her lovely soft titties and drown my sorrows in pure bliss.

.........

LJ26a

"We're Going Streaking!"

Bought "Beast Wars" season 2 and 3 today, though I don't have season 1, so I am not watching them yet.

anyways........

I tell you this, cause I know.......

I know

Last week of August, my friends are throwing a party in Gainesville

I think it's gonna be a joint B-Day party of some sorts, and even though mine is in December we are celebrating it anyways......

The plans are already set in motion

we have a house, we like borrowed it from some guys (who want to attend so I GUESS they are invited.) who have "supposedly" a nice bug house.

12 kegs

me and my boys

women

and all that good shizznit they bring

music

12 fuggin kegs

............we are gonna have a Bouncer.

a list of people that can get in.

Remember Old School? Mich-A-Palooza?

Yeah..........it's gonna be like that, except no snoop dogg and more streakers.

this is going to be an insane party

and hopefully i get so drunk I don't remember any of it.......

YEAH!

Great plan!

good fun!

LJ25

Wedding Crashers was funny as hell

too tired and lazy to even post what has been going on in my life

but the main part is....

My life this summer has involved NO girls......

and that's just one girl too little.

*cries*

LJ24

"KING KONG AIN'T GOT SHIT ON ME!"

Nothing exciting today........

after work I went to walmart and saw Josh, so like we talked...he seems bored of his job, or lie he doesn't care much for it. He has no passion for it I guess.

Was good seeing him, hopefully he will come around and meet some of my geeky friends so we can finally get a 4th player for smash bros.

I then went to my Dads house...

damn I hardly go there.....

and brought him back his Goodfellas shirt I borrowed...

that shirt kicks ass.

and I gave him a picture of him, Stephen and myself.....

he loved it

we talked for awhile

and I left...

He is a good person......

I need to hang around him more often.

LJ23

"Do it with style or don't do it at all."

Does anyone ever wonder why animated movies nowadays are like nothing in comparison to some.....ok one of the movies in the 80's?

The Transformers movie was just amazing in so many ways.

It is a classic and was ground breaking.

I mean, sure everyone that went to go watch it had seen the show, fans or something........

what's the first thing the movie does for fans of the Tv show.......

Oh yeah....

KILL OFF all those characters you had known and loved.....Ironhide..Wheeljack.....Prowl.
....Ratchet and some other autobots....

like...all the autobots were useless...... it's like they traded spaces with the decepticons. Tehy all couldn't aim their guns for crap and the bad guys had perfect dead on aim.....

The ONLY autobot...and quite frankly the autobot that won the war, Optimus Prime single handedly destroyed like all of the Decepticon Brigade....

then...Megatron kills him........

.........Optimus Prime died....

People you loved died in front of yer eyes.......

and we were kids.....

if you didn't cry when Op died...

you have no soul and Jesus doesn't love you.

..it's true....

..and that is one reason why that movie was awesome....

because it showed who would go to heaven and who would rot in hell....

I mean anyone who didn't cry deserves that shit.

LJ22

"Update bitches!"

What I have bought in 05

Suikoden 4
Kingdom Hearts: CoM
Legend of Zelda: Minish Cap
Ys 6
World of Warcraft
Shining Tears
Stella Dues
Fire Emblem SS
Shadow Hearts 2
Front Mission 4 (though I have had it for ever and still not played it.)
Atelier Iris
CHAPELLE SHOW SEASON TWO...........MOTHER FUCKER!!!!!!!

What I need to buy...........

Rhapsodia
Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess
Final Fantasy XII
Kingdom Hearts 2
Xenosaga ep.2 and 3
Wild Arms ACF
Riviera
Phantasy Star, II, and IV
Baiten Kaitos
Dragon Warrior VIII
SMT: Digital Devil Saga
Paper Mario
Breath of Fire V
Inuyasha: Cursed Mask
Drakengard
Megaman Comand Mission

Titles that have slipped my grasp that I must find..

Those .Hack games......
Saga Frontier
Saga Frontier 2
Vagrant Story
Threads of Fate
Suikoden 1 (since mine doesn't work anymore.. ; ;)
Tactics Ogre
Beyond the Beyond (...sue me)
Hoshigama
Breath of Fire 3 (see Suiko1, and remind me never to let ANYONE borrow my games.)
Brigande

konichiwa bitches!

LJ21

"Habitual" 

yeah

...fun weekend so far........

............

although

I think I might have found something........

more fun

then

drinking

....and smoking....

no, seriously.......


it's always been there........

but, been over shadowed by....me being drunk or high......

and that is......

...................

fucking around with people who are drunk or high, when I am sober.......

no seriously.........tonight I didn't drink......

er I say tonight, cause in the morning, I went to the beach and got FIZZUCKED up, gotta love the captain.

anyways

all my boys either got high or drank

I had my share of that "fun" the night before, I just wasn't in the mood.

it just felt like......

whenever someone talked....

they left themselves open to a smart ass comment I was thinking of....

and of course I said it

..cause I could think straight nigga...

that shit was funny.

...........to me

no one else liked it

and I seem to recall, back in the day when alchol wasn't so accesible to us.

I used to do this shit all the time.......

you could say

I crossed the line

but like all the time

I was(am) a Habitual line crosser......

oh, and it's fun...this shit is coming back..

until I get cracked(like what almost happened tonight)...then it might go away again.

lol

LJ20

Gay, thy name is Ryan.

on a side note.

After buying season two of the chapelle show.....

I find that the episode with P. Diddy is like one of my most favorite skits from the show......

I mean......wow

I tell ya, the gayest thing ever is.........

for the 4th weekend....

I have my house all to myself.....

and

gawd dammit wouldn't ya know.......

I have no girl to get......

.......pardon my french.


fucked up to bring back to my place........

=(

LJ19

"Rain, rain, go away..."

It's raining far to gawd damn much down here..........

LJ18

"Sell Out."

So today seemed like an ordinary day, right?

I had to tell Gonzalo something, so you know.....I give him a call.

.........

He gets this huge attitude with me. Accusing me of things and said I sold him and Steven out.

WHAT

THE

FUCK!

I don't know what happened this weekend while I was chillin with my other boys, but damn...

that kinda hurt.......

You can never please everyone can you.

lol

LJ17

"Yo...this is crazy!"

heh thought I'd make an update after watching Hulk fuggin Hogan wrestle on TV.

anyways, let me tell you how gay metro con was........

gay like a good ass licking.

anyways after I got away from Gonzalo and Steven Friday I changed and went to meet up with Fezz, Aj and two guys I met before, some black guy and some Asian guy...their names aren't important.

We get food and they decide that they want to drink(bwa hahahahahahah) so I drive them to my uncle's liquor store and we buy some booze, I estimate that 4 of us will drink, cause Sean........the black guy...I assumed he would want to drink...cause he was like black and shit......

sadly he didn't, and Fezz doesn't drink so the Cuban the Irish guy and the Asian man were stuck with 2 days of booze for 4 guys..........do the math. =)

Back at the room we heard rumor of a dance of some sort. A con dance....now for those less fortunate to never have gone to these events, lemme explain them to you.....

........gay?

no wait..........very very gay?

but seriously...........(gawd damn they are gay) it's not a dance you are thinking of....they play jap music......like DDR music.............like NOT real dance music. Music, that you CAN'T dance to. Really shitty shitty shitty music. And yet we were going to go there, BUT we were going to go there with alcohol in us. We thought that was a good middle ground for such a gay event.

We decide to drink the vodka on day one. We made screw drivers (mixed em with OJ). I had about 1 or 2 more drinks then the other two guys in the room. I just about had half of that damn fif......yes fif....fo five FIF!!!!!!

At this point the night starts getting blurry... =)

At some point my brother's old girlfriend started texting me. She is like Danny's cousin and just seems like ugh to even look at, but hey I was drinking. She calls me and I start talking about her huge titties/ I must have forgotten I was talking TO her about them, cause I kept mentioning that when I see her, and them that I want to box with them. Oh well I was drunk......lets hope she doesn't tell anyone......

We then make it to the dance, I start dancing, I dunno with who, I dunno how long, I just know I dance in a dark room. One thing I remember, maybe cause I see this at any con dance was that everyone else who was "dancing" wasn't moving their lower bodies at all........

*twitch*

....we then go to the game room to meet up with Fezz, I TRY to play smash bros, I think I fall out of the chair or something, almost knock a TV off a table, you know fun shit.

Um......we get back to the room, somehow.........I am like real hyper at this point, I was in a playful mood. I wanted to play, that was all I understood. AJ tries to calm me down, says maybe we should go to the pool to relax. Sounds fun to me, I thought, but I didn't have a swim suit at the hotel. So I took off my pants and was gonna jump in, just in my Boxers. Still sounds like a half decent problem, although this is also were everything goes wrong.

So it seemed as though the pool was already closed......that was it for me. I began to play a game of hide and seek, except no one else knew I was playing. So it LOOKED like I was just running around a hotel in my boxers like a maniac. This lasted for a long time, yada yada yada, words were throw around, feeling were hurt and Scar drove home pant less. Day one was over, and might I add a fun ass day one too. =)

Day two was less eventful, I met up with some old faces from my past, exchanged some words. Walked around the con for anything that looked attractive so I could get a photo with.......sadly I found hardly anything. Ummmm second day was really uneventful now that I think about it. We just how do you spell it, reminisced (fuck you spell check). No one wanted to drink cause they thought I had a drinking problem or something......HAH

I really do.

Ummmmm yeah so third day I made Chris come to the con with me. We really didn't stay that long, we said our goodbyes and played some smash...that was about it. I pretty much just wanted Chris to go to waste his time. In the end I didn't buy anything at the con, I didn't take ANY pictures with any girls their. So I guess it was a good con. At least it gave me memories....

or something.......

and payote...is VERY good shit.

LJ16

"lollipops and candy canes"

Well I was out of town for a week.

Gonzalo, being the great friend he is decided on a road trip. Steven, him and I were gonna go to Miami and go crazy for a whole week. Sounds fun huh? Well it did, until he told me we were gonna stay at his brother's.......

heh had a 30 minute delay was watching boy meets world. :-P

anyways, we were going to stay at Victor's house......who is Jessica's dad. FUN!!!!!!! A week with Jessy and even better her boyfriend. Whatever, I couldn't let that ruin my week of insane'ness'iosity.....and stuff. Someone had a great idea, I am sure it was me for the 4 hour drive down to Cooper city, to drink while we drove there. Not just the two passengers...oh no no no, all three of us. Gonzalo drove, by the end of the drive we were all really feeling good, but ya know we had to pee. So we park off of alligator alley. There was a guard rail, I guess to represent the end of land or something, you know cause after that rail was swamp. I had the idea in me that peeing on the rail would be a...BAD idea. Soooooooooo I jump over the rail, I jump over it and into the swamp. So I killed the drinking after that, considering I smelled like ass. We get to Vics house, I instantly run upstairs and take a shower, cause...hey wouldn't ya know I have been to Jessy's house and know my way around it...... *dies* I come downstairs to see....this fag with his arm around Jessy. No problem.....*twitch* I was gonna have to deal with this the entire time there, so I really had to let my Id come out.

First night we just chilled and made fun of me for jumping in a swamp.

Second day we went out and met up with some of Gomez's frat boys and some girls he knew. We also met up with Ali G, which was kinda weird. We drove around forever and just kinda hung out. That night was insane though, since Miami is such a fucking confusing town, plus we were fucked up, it was crazy.

Wednesday, might I add this whole time we were the laziest shits alive on this vacation during the day. We didn't leave the house till night time. We went to some game place that was way too gay for us to be there. Beer was 3 bucks...way too much for me to want to waste on. Considering Jessy is Gonzalo's neice, she did invite us to go there, but fag boy was there. I was glad Steve and Gomez didn't want to stay that long. It was my turn to drive that night, so both of my boys were idiots and I was the sane one. I'm not used to that, and it sucks. So yeah, we got lost, but we founf the Hard Rock and I went to go play some Poker while the queers ran around laughing at everything. After almost 2 hours I was down 2 dollars, so I packed my chips and left kinda dissapointed.

Thursday was our last "out" night. We met up with my cousin who lives in Miami, who is prolly my favorite cousin. My friends met her, and of course they thought she was cute, but....BUT they also said she looked like a younger version of my mom.......which scared me. When they were drunk and stupid they did reveal that they thought my mom was hot....

..............UGH

but yeah I love my cousin, rich ass Miami girl, and she has rich ass hot Miami friends. She lives in the Ritz Carlton in a suite at the top...insane. Gonzalo was driving, we did manage to get lost yet again. I had made plans to go to Metro con on friday, but we didn't get back to Vics house till 7:30 am. By the time we got home, his wife was going to work. Thus my friends explained that we could not leave at the time we were originally going to leave at, the first of my problems to come ahead.

Friday we FINALLY leave Vics place(didn't even see Jessy to sday goodbye Friday, though I doubt she cared) at around 4'ish, meaning we wouldn't get back to Tampa until 8'ish. I was supposed to meet with the other guys at around 4 itself. Gonzalo started giving me this second degree of guilt cause I was rushing them to go hang with my other friends, but I didn't explain anything to them and I kinda left them out of the plans. Considering these two sets of friends don't seem to like the same types of things and this was the first time they were even in the same town at the same time. I just kept them separated, but Gomez calls that being shady.

Miami was fun

but at points I questioned why I went...........

next, was metro con................ugh

Blast from the...

What I have bought in 05

Suikoden 4
Kingdom Hearts: CoM
Legend of Zelda: Minish Cap
Ys 6
World of Warcraft
Shining Tears
Stella Dues
Fire Emblem SS

What I need to buy...........

Final Fantasy XII
Kingdom Hearts 2
Xenosaga ep.2
Wild Arms ACF
Phantasy Star II, III, and IV
Full Metal Alchemist: and the Broken Angel - meh, might not buy...........
Baiten Kaitos
Shadow Hearts 2
Front Mission 4
Dragon Warrior VIII
SMT: Digital Devil Saga
Paper Mario
Breath of Fire V
Inuyasha: Cursed Mask
Drakengard
Megaman Comand Mission

Titles that have slipped my grasp that I must find..

Those .Hack games......
Saga Frontier
Saga Frontier 2
Vagrant Story
Threads of Fate
Suikoden 1 (since mine doesn't work anymore.. ; ;)
Tactics Ogre
Beyond the Beyond (...sue me)
Hoshigama
Breath of Fire 3 (see Suiko1, and remind me never to let ANYONE borrow my games.)
Brigande

Has this list even gone down? No...it hasn't.

LJ15

"Hey, I don't care man...."


White Hawku: You know what
White Hawku: I don't fucking care
Majin Rad Shadow: lol
White Hawku: I'm gay

unedited and for yer viewing entertainment.
The best things in life are worth waiting for........

.........does anyone believe this?

LJ14

shaving with a sun burn and a rug burn..........

sucks

LJ13

"The F*ck is Juice!?"

Lucas did have one thing right...

Took two white men to take down one Black Jedi...

say it loud..........

I'm black and I'm proud!

LJ12

"Mr. Missed Opportunities."

Star Wars WAS good.

Lucas can finally stop trying to fuck up the good name.

Ravi left, I gave him a picture of me, him and AJ. I bet he uses it as a dart board. ;)

Graduation time.......

so annoying, all these people from yer past. Meeting them again, seeing things that I could have had, wasted, gone, never to been experienced.

A girl from my past, that when I went to high school, I lost contact. I saw her today, a blast from my past, beautiful..............taken.

Maybe not my fault, but now I realize I could have had a good chance to have this girl as my own.

Something, these small flings I do to consume my sorrow can't help with.......

My own girl, nothing special, but someone more then just a quick lay.

What else am I missing out on?

Why do I torment myself with these thoughts?

Who kidnapped Bookkeeper Robins?

This and much more in the next episode of "mid crisis fag!"

LJ11

"Braces"

I'd like to let all the ladies reading this out there......

(be it I think just two people read my journal, and neither are girls, though one is a pussy(bwa hahahah))

I was reminded today

I saw a girl with braces on, and for some reason, girls think that those things are ugly.

Well....

That isn't what I think

I em"brace" them........

get it.....

No seriously, I think the most beautiful girl I have ever met has braces.

and that doesn't take away from her beauty.

I can't see how people could make fun of girls(or guys, but who gives a shit about guys.)

whatever, this topic has no meaning, just me bantering......

banter......

oh and

Nigga, I was just rapin his ass. We cool.

LJ10

"Poker in the front liquor in the back."

Poker nights are like toss ups for fun.

I mean I know I am gonna have a fun time, but it's the fun I have with all guys.

and generally.....

that is my least amount of fun.

cause really.......

women make anything more fun.

I get to Chris' house and find out the game is going to be short a couple people, we usually play with six or seven people. Tonight there was going to be a max of five, maybe less. Ravi was a person who MIGHT show up, but he said he would be in town around twelve.

Chris also mention that he tried to sell his Everquest character and was offered 400 bucks at this site playerquctions.com. Reminder to myself I need to check that place out.

Chris again, challened me to a chugging contest, but this time, in his favor, cause he chose Cans as the things we chugged from. Also, it was his beer selection and Dan said he wanted to join and see how well he fares.

See.......

Awhile agao Chris challenged me to a bottle beer chugging contest with five bucks on the line, and when I completely beat the hell out of him he complained because he was used to chugging with cans.

SO!

Jimmy counted to three and the three of us had a gool ole fashion chugging contest. I won........of course, and I think Dan got second place. The beer, by the way was nasty as hell, and never again will I let Chris choose the alcohol. He apparently likes the taste of ass.

Poker took way too long.

First game was, me, Dan, Chris, Jimmy, and Caleb.

Jimmy won, where as I came in second, not that it counts......

for the record we played Smash brothers for Master of the Universe.......

I wasn't master, but....BUT Chris was the cock sucker, fag, loser of the Universe by the end.

that was around two..........I was pretty much spent on Poker, and Caleb had fallen asleep, but Thomas called and said he was coming over to play another game.

Five player poker is the least I usually buy in for, so we all did.......

but

the game lasted WAY too long, Thomas single handedly knocked, Chris, Da, Me and then Jimmy out one by one to win the game....

it was complete BS, but at the same time it was funny, cause Dan and Jimmy took it way to serious when they lost.

the night ended at 5 in the morning........

Rav is in town....that adds some sort of randomness for awhile..that is until we NEVER see him again, when he moves to San Diego.....

that kinda sucks.......

:(

LJ9

"There's no crying in Kitties!"

....my oh my, my days have been boring lately.

Today.........the highlight of my day has been.........

nothing really.

Woke up JUST in time to get ready for work.

Found out

Kristen already has a date for Manny's wedding.

Went to Rachel's graduation.......................she was graduating from 8th grade........yeah, I know.

Got home......

and now

I am thinking

To me

TO ME, which is the better show.

"Married with Children" or "Boy Meets World"?

cause really......

Married with Children has everything, and it also has the humor for the growing adult in me.

Boy Meets World is the show that will forever give me nostalgia of my childhood, and for that it is special to me.

both have meaning in my life, both having meaning for different reasons.....

which do I cherrish more?

LJ8

I hate AJ.

This is his fault.

HAVE YOU EVER...

1. Kissed your cousin:
Yes, us latinos greet each other by kisses.

2. Ran away:
No

3. Pictured your crush naked:
Ugh, Hell yeah

4. Skipped school:
Too many times to count.

5. Broken someone's heart:
No, I hate hurting people, unless it's a guy.

6. Been in love:
ugh

7. Cried when someone died:
Yeah

8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have:
..........this test sucks.

10. Done something embarrassing:
Dressed up as a hooker once.......

11. Lied:
....yeah

12. Cried in school:
I am pretty sure I have, I mean I used to be fat, and was thrown into a fat club by the other kids.

WHICH IS [BETTER]...

13. Coke or Pepsi:
Neither

14. Sprite or 7UP:
Neither

15. Girls or Guys:
Guys, girls just fuck with you, cause they know they can.

16. Flowers or Candy:
Candy, I hate flowers, eighty dollars, fuck roses.

17. Scruff or Clean shaved:
clean, but when I shave I usually get razor burn.

18. Blondes or Brunetts:
Brunettes, though blondes are easier to get along with.

19. Bitchy or slutty:
Bitchy if I had to choose, I hate the fact of her being too easy, makes me wonder...how easy it was for everyone else.

20. Tall or Short:
If taller then me, then I have problems, so short.

21. Pants or Shorts:
Like I care.

22. Night or Day:
night, cause I can cry myself to sleep.

WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX...

23. What do you notice first :
Her Face

24. Like Being Spanked:
.......me or them, well both answers are yes.

25. Worst Question For Him/her to ask:
How old are you?

LAST TIME YOU

26. Showered:
Like five minutes ago, I have to shower in the morning and at nights.

27. Stepped outside:
Last night, when I came home.

28. Had Sex:
heh, Who me? I plead the fifth

ABOUT YOU...

29. Ever been Engaged/ Married:
no

30. Your Good luck charm:
My Grandmother's cross. Never take it off.

31. Person You Hate Most:
Roberto, really, he was one of the guys. He fucked us all over. He was like my brother, my older brother I sought advice from.

32. Best Thing That Has Happened:
My friends, all of them, even the most tiny and homosexual ones.

33. Where did it go?:
I ate it.

34. Picture on your desktop:
The Soul Eater.

35. Color:
Pink

36. Movies:
Scarface, Fight Club, Goodfellas, The Wood

37. Artist or band:
Neptunes

38. Cars:
Porche

39. Ice Cream:
I try not to eat this shit.

41. Food:
Something spanish.

WHO...

42. Makes You Laugh The Most:
Gonzalo

43. Makes You Smile:
So many people.

44. Can Make You Feel Better No Matter What:
.....abstain.

45. Has A Crush On You:
.......I wish I knew.

46. Do You Have A Crush On Someone:
......ummm no, I don't think so..... *cries*

47. Who Has It Easier?:
Them

48. Gives You A Funny Feeling When You See Them:
........abstain


DO YOU EVER...

49. Sit By The Phone Waiting For A Phone Call All Night:
no, that leads to me waiting in my bed with the phone on my stomach and then I suually fall asleep.

50. Save AIM Conversations:
Once, and now I read it to cry.

51. Save E-mails:
Don't save em, but they are like stored or something.

52. Forwarded Secret E-mails:
no

53. Wish You Were Someone Else:
no

54. Wish You Were A Member Of The Opposite Sex:
......no, wait if I answer yes, is that gay?

55. Wear perfume:
When I go out.

56. Kiss:
Yes

57. Cuddle:
One of my favorite things to do with my female.

58. Go Online For Longer Than Eight Hours At A Time:
Sadly, who answering this thing doesn't?

HAVE YOU EVER....

59. Fallen For Your Best Friend?
...she isn't my best friend!

60. Made Out With JUST A Friend?
No

61. Kissed Two People In The Same Day?:
heh, nah

62. Had Sex With Two Different People In The Same Day?
...........heh, no

63. Been Rejected?:
Does a bear shit in the woods?

64. Been In Love?:
yeah

65. Been In Lust?:
.......right now? er I mean right now.

66. Used Someone?:
I like to think that I am doing that, but in the end I need every bit of attention.

67. Been Used?:
YES!

68. Dumped Someone?:
Nope

69. Been Cheated On?:
heh, yeah

70. Back Doored It?
what the hell? I don't think so.

71. Done Something You Regret?
Many many times.


WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...


72. You Touched?
My mom, as she scared me trying to wake me up today.

73. You Talked To?:
My mom

74. You tickled:
My mom, what? It was mothers day, shut up!

75. You Instant Messaged?
AJ

76. You kicked:
Maria, in her ass too.

77. You Yelled At?:
My mom.

78. You Dreamed About? :
..............her.

79. Who Text Messaged You?:
I believe it was Ravi, and something about raping me as well.

80. Who Broke Your Heart?:
.....her.

81. Who Told You They Loved You?:
.....fucking her, why do you torment me?

DO YOU...

82. Color Your Hair?
no

83. Have Tattoos?
no

84. Have Piercings?:
yeah

85. Boyfriend/girlfriend?:
not yet, I plan to rectify that soon.

86. Own A Webcam?:
nope, no silly Jim dances for everyone to see.

87. Own A Thong?:
own no, worn............no?

88. Ever Get Off The Damn Computer?:
I try, it is like my anti drug or something, only that isn't true.

89. Sprechen Sie Deutsch?:
Gay

90. Habla espanol?:
Si!

91. Buy Designer:
I buy desinger.....I dunno.

HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU...

92. Stolen Anything?:
heh, see AJ's anime collection?

93. Smoke?:
Only the good stuff.

94. Schizophrenic?:
I don't think so.

95. Obsessive?:
kinda

96. Compulsive?:
kinda

97. Obsessive compulsive?
No

98. Panic?:
Only when I am doing something I shouldn't be. So I guess I panic a lot.

99. Anxiety?:
Nah, I eat a lot though.

100. Stressed?:
Yeah, cause of her.

Note: Sad that most of these although mine weren't witty, were almost identical to AJ.

LJ7

Mothers Day

My brother woke me up, I turned the phone on silent and went back to sleep.

Three hours later, Kristen called me. This time I woke up. She called to let me know she was free Monday night so I could go teach her how to salsa dance. This had me happy, for two reasons. One, cause Kristen was completely fucking hot as hell, and Two talking to this girl would be the best thing for me to get Jessy off my mind.

Really, I need to stop thinking about her, cause this isn't healthy. How could I be so wrong? What the hell did....why did she tell me all those things, to just shit on everything I had hoped and dreamed for?

..............

I am doing it again...........

I really hope I can get my mind clear enough to do the right thing with Kristen. Cause she is really nice, and REALLY hot. She also invited us all over to her grandpa's beach house after Manny's wedding. Which by the way she wanted me to be her dance partner for, WHICH by the way I wasn't invited too all together.

Which is low, cause I have know Manny as long as I have know most of the guys.

No biggie, I went to my mom's friend's house and had lunch with her. I drank, took pics and watches the Untouchables.

Sean Connery is God.

I stayed for a bit, hugged and kissed my mom a whole bunch and then was off.

I went to Albert's house and did the same "Mother's Day" routine.

I went to Steve's uncles house had some tequila shots there.

I then ate dinner at Applebees and drove Steven to his car. It was at Gomez' house, apparently he had not left for Gainesville yet. We chilled there for a bit and then I drove home.......

and that was that.

LJ6

"I'm going to Jail."

Quince night............

Our toast was to this being the last quince we ever perform in.

We do what I said, we got dressed at Steven's house. We wait for Danny who has the 151, who by the way is retarded and got there late. We take about three shots before the bottle is dry. Me, Gonzalo, Danny and Steven were the drinkees. Luisito had one shot, and Justin just took pics. Which by the way we are all mostly 21 and this family still advocates drinking. So we did it in Steve's room after Rudy had left. Three shots, yeah we weren't anything special, but I was feeling nice. The suit just never look looked right to me when I went to the mirror. I think it was just me being my usual self doubter, but everyone else said I looked fine.

By the way, I really do have that problem, where I will look at myself in the mirror and contemplate what is wrong with my body. I dunno, I am weird like that. I have so much to work on.

Anyways, we had a limo come pick us up. The rest of the Gang was outside. We go in and drive around a bit before someone remembered we had forgotten something. Instinctevly me and Gomez(gonzalo) jump out of the car to get it. Cause we know, we can raid Steve's parent's scotch and take one more quick shot before we really leave. We do, and then we get what we came inside for and we leave. Still, nothing to set me off, but I was feeling nice. The technical word was "Buzzing", so I was starting to feel the buzz. We get to the place, to take pictures with our couples. Mine, Kathy, who is 15, looked really good. I had to get that out of my mind. I wasn't going to jail.

......I bet I could snag her if I tried though, just saying I COULD do it if I put effort.

We then, after the pictures all got in a party bus, both guys and girls. Albert and Cherry came with us too. There was no room, so I had to sit on top of the cooler door. I opened it to see what was inside to find a bottle of Jack Daniels that is almost empty. Gomez, sitting next spots it as well, our gazes meet and we know, that bottle has to be empty before we get out of the bus. Albert was the wall though, we had to wait till he left the bus for a second before we poured oursleves the stuff. Mind you, Jack Daniels is nasty, but at this point me and Gomez were just trying to get fucked up. Whatever, we finished it and the bus trip was off. Albert, like a damn psychic begins yelling, "Who drank from the bottle in there!" I was sitting ontop of the damn thing, the empty bottle was in the cooler, hidden. How the hell? He grabs it and stares us down. I pour some OJ in my cup and just brush it off, trying to to stare in his eyes.

Really, I am 21 If I want to drink I should be able to freely. I hate when I am with this family that I have to deny that I drink. I mean we all do it, but I guess it is fun hiding the fact from them. They come from being alcoholics and drug dealers, they are just being protective cause they have lived and been through it all. They are a bit OVER protective, and well I am gonna live my life to the fullest.

It didn't matter, cause no one looked drunk. No one was, my and Gonzalo were the most gone and we are the best at holding out liquor. We looked fine.

The only times I get paranoid when this family gets around me is when I am high. But that itself is another story.

The party bus was pretty much me messing with the radio unable to listen to any rap music cause it have profanity it its lyrics. It dropped us back off at the plus(the place where the family throws most of it's parties.) We get ready, we do our thing. We knock it out, I thought we all did a great job. Did I mention Kathy, my partner looked real good? Dammit, why do I like spanish girls so much? I made people laugh during parts where no one should have laughed.............my usual for these events. My brother came, his Ex was here too, and her brother, who he thought didn't like him. Funny as how they never met so Manny didn't even know what Stephen looked like.

Remember I have a best from SteVen, and my brother StePHen. Just trying to help out.

Bam, dance was over. It went by real fast, now was the time to eat, or for me to go around and greet people. Two faces I did not expect there were lil Cari, and old family member long since left the family circle because she chose(basically) her husband over the family. The other was Alisha, Gonzalo's ex. She said she wasn't gonna be here due to her aunt's party. Both seemed amusing enough for me to talk to until I remember who was best friends with both these people, Jessy. Cause right when I went to kiss them she was right there. Looking all beautiful as always.

Did she?

and Alisha and Cari both love to talk to me, and they love to talk to Jessy so there I was stuck with two old friends and this girl I can't have. Jessy acted normal with me, like there was never no other guy. Flirting and what not, we took pictures, we drank, we danced. Basically she was my dance partner for the night. She looked really beautiful, she was not mine. I was furious at the thought of that. That some other guy put his hands on her.

Did she do that at prom?

This was so shitty. I needed to do something, cause then Cari wanted us all to go out clubbing, just the four of us. Like THAT wouldn't me awkward. The night dwindled away and Steve was already making plans for afterwards for us to go out somewhere to hang or something. Meanwhile my brother was getting re-aquainted with his ex, Rachel. It was funny, I dunno, this was like the only girl he had slept with and even since, he hasn't been with anyone so I guess he realized this and went back to what he could obtain. Gomez on the other hand was checking out all the females at the party. He tells me, "I am gonna go to jail." When he says this I know what he means. He is checking out girls that are younger then us. Illegeal even. He is looking at this girl who he jokes about looks to be 13. "It's not worth going to jail for." He would say, then he would come back five minutes later and say, "Shit nigga I'm going to jail!" It didn't matter, the best looking girl there was Jessy, FUCK!

Gonzalo being the ass that he is decided to ask Jessy about this guy when I was sitting next to her. Fun, like I want to know anything about this fag. Seems like she left the college she was going to attend, that was close to where I lived, (one that we had talked about for awhile that she had been wanting to attend real bad.) now to the college where this guy was going.

Great, they are fucking. Or whatever my mind is throwing in my head to get me mad.

Casey and Jojo comes on, "all my life" a real pretty song. What does she do, dances with me, a slow song, singing the song to me.

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She left after that, didn't even kiss my goodbye. I am so glad that was the last song, I was about to lose it. We get to Steven's house back where all of our cars are. Steve says that everyone was going to hang at this girls Heidi's house. It was my Steve, Stephen, and Gomez going. Apparantly Danny was already there with Yenly. We get there to see Rachel outside, (hahahahahaha) and Manny inside (BWAHAHAHAHAHA) and Danny, Yenly, Nikki, Felicia, Jose, and Heidi. Yenly is the only drunk one there. Manny looks at my brother and begins to question who he is. Gomez does the stupid(yet funny as shit) thing to say who he is and who knows him. He mentioned Manny's sister's name at the end and then started laughing. Of course I saw the irony here, but I tried to not laugh, at least not laugh to where Manny could see me. I turned my head and almost cried.

We sit in a circle, Yenly this whole time is talking and drinking. No one else pretty much is drinking. As she continues to drink she just begins to blurt out all sorts of secrets. Like stuff they did at the bachlorette party and even stuff about her sex life with danny. No one was stopping her, but jesus if it wasn't the funniest thing to see her talk all this stupid drunkeness secrets things that she should be telling any of us. We were literally rolling on the floor. While we were leaving, Jose grabbed me and Gonzalo and told us we need to hang out more often, to chill more at his place. This our course meant to go hang with him and smoke, but yeah me and Gonzalo are leeches, and never pay to do any of this stuff. So a guy, offering free weed to us, is A'OK in our books. I just need to get his number.


and that was the end of the night.

........fun huh?

LJ5

So last night we went out clubbing.

Me, Danny, Yenly, Steven, Alexis, Gonzalo, Jackie, Nikki, Greg, Yuri, and then some other girl.

I was supposed to go with Kristen, but she didn't go at the last moment.

We got in VIP to Studio Inc. Javi works there and he got us in for free, and free drinks and stuff.

They were doing a Salsa Contest, winner gets $2,000.00 bucks ya'll. So I was like hmmmmmmmm

Gonzalo took Jackie, the only girl there that even knew how to dance the salsa style I do. So I was at a loss.

Then someone passed with some flowers, Roses to be more specific. I saw them and instinctively I thought of Jessy. Who, usually is my salsa partner wherever we go out dancing. I then back traced a lot, today this was her Prom night. Great, now that was on my mind.

.........I would go out and try to dance, but then my mind was being a real buzz kill. Whenever I was having fun I had the image of Jessy being fucked by someone other then me. All night long, I couldn't get that out of my head.

I was so pissed.

and now I wonder, what if? I will see her tonight, at the quince.

We are dressing up like old Cubans, like how they dressed in Cuba back when it was a jazzy place to visit. We got top hats and overalls and everything.

but still, did she?

I really do hate when my mind does this.

Oh, yeah. Gonzalo thought it would be a fun idea if before this quince we all took three shots of 151.

mmmmmmmmm

LJ4

Cinco De Mayo

Today, it is ok to pretend you are Mexican.

I had the hat.

I had the Taco.

I had the tequila shot.

I had the tequila shot.

I had the tequila shot.

I had the tequila shot.

I had the tequila shot.

I had the tequila shot.

I had the tequila shot.

I had the tequila shot.

I had the tequila shot.

I did the wave in Don Pablos.

I had the tequila shot.

I had the tequila shot.

I competed with an old bald man to see who's shot glass tower could get the highest.

I had the tequila shot.

Is that 13? I can't tell, I am a lil gone. Walked out of there with a 33 dollar tab on just shots.

Only, ONLY day where it is fun to be Mexican.

It's fun, cause after you vomit, you realize how much better you still have it then them.

LJ3

Family Friends, and Online Peeps.

I want to list just about everyone I possibly am in contact with, within the last months or so.

Bored, confused, I do this to pass the time now........

Best friends

These are it, these are them, "The guys" "The suaves" "The swo" "La Mamertos", my inner circle, who I confide all of my deepest darkest secrets. There once was five, now just four remain(me included). We share a family bond and are each others brothers.

Gonzalo - aka, mastermind, it was he that introduced me to everyone. It is his family that also causes me the most pain.

Steven - aka, Suave, the "good looking" guys of the group. Narcissist if I ever saw one. Unique, he is...big on family ties. The only one of us that has not gotten laid before. He seriously needs it too.

Danny - aka, jap, jappy. The goofiest guy I ever met. Seriously he is like having your own personal clown by your side at all times.

Great group of friends, I love them to death. Going on about 9 years of memories.

Family

Gus - my dad, aka crazy Gus. The person who taught me the joys of alcohol. He never had it easy and he is tortured by the fact that he could not give me and my brother... "the world."

Grace - my mom, aka mommy? I dunno, she constantly tries to blame things on me, so sad that it has become funny. She see's her rich sister and wants her life like that, only she can't. A never ending losing struggle I do not get involved with.

Stephen - my brother, my blood. He sees my dad and wishes to be like him. I can see my Dad's pride and foolishness in the actions he does. He is young, the world has something big for him.

Richelle - aka Rocket, my sister. Older and more mature then I ever was, I never had a lil sister to protect, but she had always watched out for me. Even though we are not really related. She is my step mom's daughter, but we never differentiate, we are brother and sister. Whether she like it or not.

Delia R - My step mom, the person who of course was like my second mom. I love her for the fact that she could do what my mom could not. That being, deal with my Dad so that my Brother did not have to go through what I did.

Carla - aka Boli(bole-lee) My mom's sister and financially sound wife of a prosperous business man in my uncle. She runs a hair saloon that I go to when I visit Miami, free cuts of course. When I go to visit her, she always shows me off to her younger clients, making me feel like a meat on display.

Luis - aka Theo Lui, the other half of the saloon, he has a horse ranch and lots of money. He also deals in real estate and constantly has his family move from house to house. I once remember him coloring his hair Blue. He is a goof.

Jihan - my cousin from Luis and Carla. The girl who I spent a whole lot of time teaching me about the opposite sex. We grew up real close and still are. Still she has been older then me and is not someone I can go around protecting.

Andy - My other cousin, the older brother to Jihan. A very responsible hard working man who earned his high paying job. Supports a family with three kids, but is currently dealing with a divorce.

Theo Tito - aka Dumas(real name) My mom's Brother. A real senior in every aspect of his life. He is laid back and enjoys retirement.

Sandra - aka Tito's wife. Hmmmmm

Titico - aka Tito Jr. My cousin who was like my bigger brother, he was always picking on me and making me cry. Ah, but when we teamed up on my lil brother, my lord how fun that was......... He now is married and has two kids.

Nana - My grandmother, real name Adelina Fuentes. Probably the person I love most in this world. Yet, as sweet as that sound, she is also the person who I least like being around. She has Alzheimer's and has completely forgotten about me. I wear her chain around my neck, just the thought of this is making me tear up......

This is gonna take awhile...I might make the descriptions less detailed...........

Mark - My sister's husband. He looks like a bear and his favorite team are the bears, coincidence I think not.

Theo Johnny - The owner of my families liquor store, me and him have become closer since me turning 21. ^^;

Uncle Freddie - the other uncle that owns the liquor store.

Francis - My aunt, disney whore if I ever saw one. Her house is scary.

Tim - My racist uncle, not many people like him, but his jokes are funny.

Little Tim - Tim and Francis' son. A chip off his father's shoulder.

Big Anthony - My uncle, a guitarist who used to be in a band with Hulk Hogan.

Little Anthony - My cousin and boss.

Sondra - Lil Ant's fiance, she is a person stuck in the 80's. Very fun to party with.

Frances - My cousin who I don't get to spend a lot of time with.

Harry - My other cousin, Big Ant's smallest. He has grown past the point of me doing wrestling moves to him.

Jorge - My uncle from my dad's side. He gets married all the time. Has a new wife every time I see him. He has many kids, I only stay in contact with one.

Jorgie - Jorge's son, a pot head who I don't talk to much anymore.

Poopi - Weirdest name ever, my uncle who is a clepto.

Petey - Poopi's son, and a wannabee spanish eminem, although he freestyles and it does not sound too bad.

Leo - My uncle from my father's side who is always at my mom's friend's parties.......

Lacy - Leo's daughter, my cousin who went to high school with me. The only female Radcliff that I know of....

Sarah - My other cousin that I went to High school with. Recent news states she is getting married soon.

Alexis - A person who I thought was my cousin all my life, but who I found is not. A very attractive girl, but when I see her I still see family. If there was anyone in my family that I look out for like a brother and sister relationship it would be her.

Angie - See above, Alexis' younger sister.

Lana - A friend of the family, who just started school. I see her at club's a lot and she always seems drunk.

Sarah - Another friend of the family. On my mom's side of friends, there seems to be a lack of guys my age. Whenever I go to my mom's friend's parties I am like the only young guy there.

Alicia - Another friend of the family. When I was younger she always made me do things I thought were embarrassing, but now I want to do them more. I always had a crush on her when I was younger. Now I think her friend is cute.

Courtney - Ahem, the friend of Alicia. She has always been cute in my eyes, but we almost never see each other.

Reuben - My mom's boyfriend, and the man who is living with us. He is cool, but he tends to get into arguments that are between me and my mom. He is lucky I do not mimic what he says to my dad.

hahahaha that was just mostly family and friends of the family. Now onto my friends families.

Don Gonzalo - aka the Don. Gonzalo's dad and the only man to ever say "Fuck You Sir" and make everyone laugh in fear.

Sandra - Gonzalo's mom and a devoted, super devoted church go'er.

Delia V - Gonzalo's sister. The person who mocks everything I wear. She hates my wardrobe, and pisses me off when she comments about it. Also the person who tells me, that me and Jessy, will never work......

Avi - Delia's husband and the best Reggaton dancer in the family.

Luisito - Avi's nephew. A new comer into the family, he seems cool. Needs help with dancing though.

Christopher - Delia's baby boy. A real cutie.

Anthony - Delia's other kid.

Carrie - Gonzalo's other sister. A more laid back, family oriented person. She is very nice and does my eyesbrows when they get too Cuban.

Glenn - Carrie's Husband. Ex Soldier and an all around cool guy.

Victor - Gonzalo's brother. A Coast guard who acts very much like one of the guys. He likes me, I think, that is until I get around his daughter.

Jessica - Why did I ever meet this girl. Gonzalo's niece, who for the longest time had a crush on me, but I knew this and I could not touch her. Why? Cause this was around the time I was 15 and she was.....12. I then started to get feelings for her and I had to hide them. The family would always watch me, cause at the time, all they knew about me was that I was the son of a Drunk. Time came when everyone knew, when I was about 18, at the time she was too young. She could not handle a long distance relationship. So, I did not wait. I could not I was young and horny, but I repressed my feelings for her. I hid them deep in my inner memory so when I saw her for every family function I wouldn't go crazy. When she finally turned 18 the family all knew I liked her and now wanted me to move forward with her. I still had no news on what she thought of me, so still my feelings stayed dormant. This past New Years, something happened and she confessed that she loved me. Her words, the words I longed to hear. So that is when all my feelings came out. I was happy, I thought she was finally ready, but as recent surveys have showed...she was not. Who knows if she will ever be now. She is still young and naive, so I won't discredit her for this. But, I waited a long time, I do not know how long I can keep this up. She is still my friend, I will not become an ass to her for this. I will be the person she has know, if that is someone she does not want to be with, then I am sorry. I will not change.

*sigh* Onto more family and friend's yay!

Albert - Danny's uncle and my pastor. A real father figure and devoted husband and all around great guy.

Cherry - Albert's wife. Another hard core church go'er.

Natalie - Albert's oldest daughter. She is big on the church stuff too.

Christina - Middle daughter of Albert. We are doing her quince at the moment.

Angelica - The youngest of Albert's daughters.

Luis - Danny's dad. A goofy pastor and another fun dad to be around.

Anita - Danny's mom. Normal mom I guess, married into a family of japs.

Justin - Danny's brother, akak Sea Bass aka Jappy Jr. The kid we used to torment when he was younger by showing hima ll that there was to know about sex when he was like 10.

Nickie - Danny's Sister. Who now is younger then me and has a kid.

Jose - Nickies husband, though we don't know for how long. He like to smoke.

Sergio - Delia's ex husband and father of Chris and Anthony. Was once in our clique, but now after the divorce has grown apart from all of us.

Shugi - aka, sugardaddy. Danny's cousin who by some strange logic related to me, so that makes me and danny distant distant distant cousins.

Maria - Steven's mom. El Diablo. I think this lady both hates me and loves me at the same time. I drive her insane, but I like to.

Rudy- Steven's dad. Creator of the awesome drink. "Fruity Rudy"

Jackie - Steven's sister, who kinda gets on my nerves at times, but ya that kinda makes her feel like a sister to me.

Gary - Friend of the family who comes to visit every so often. He is a cool person who DJ's.

Joey - Gary's brother. The gayest straight man ever, but damn he can dance good. Or, that I think the way he dances is neat. Either way it looks extremely homosexual, but he is cool. If that makes sense. hahaha

Chris - My smoking friend who lives in the wood with me. He is a real laid back cat.

Andre - About the only person from high school that I still hang out with.

Kristen - Someone I worked with, who is now single. A real REAL attractive girl, but from the looks of it she is talking to someone already. *tear*

and now people I have met online who are close to me

AJ - aka Lacks. From all the people I have met online this loser is my closest friend. He likes to draw and shit. I don't think I have been called a fag more by any other person.

Ryan - aka Fezz. Another good friend of mine. Is a real ladies man, watch out for him when he hits the dance floor. Will Smith would be proud.

Klye - aka Elky, aka Magus. Lil Fezz, always fun to hang out with, but recently he has been MIA.

Colin - aka kilik. The ladies man of Team Fezz. He is also like some sort of great Sould Calibur 2 player. I stole his shoes.

Derik - The biggest racist I have ever met. Also a very funny guy. Why is it that all racist are funny to me?

Ravi - The person who made. "Nigga, I'ma rape yo ass," a funny one liner. He of course "gots" me all the time.

Chris - aka faggot fuck, aka Twist. Ok, met him through Ravi who I met through AJ. Although this guy lives in my town and I am now part of his poker crew. He is super fast when he is drunk.

Jimmy - Chris' brother and poker wizard. He knows all the percentages of every hand. I am not entirely sure if that is something to be proud of.

Daniel - Friend of Chris who I became friends with after spending so much time staring him down across the poker table. I believe he is the only person who I was introduced to, while he was naked.

Caleb - Friend of Daniels, real nice guy.

Thomas - Friend of Daniels, brags about how many women he has slept with all the time. I believe him since he is like an ADD person. His numbers range in the 150's........

Mike - The asian guy we play poker with. He leaves his dandruff on the table. It is very nasty.

Nick - aka PMA. A really huge skater nerd who thinks his shit does not stink. He lives in Colorado and came all the way down to Florida to visit me. He really is a huge dork, but I guess that is him charm.

Brandon - aka Drl. Met him on AN. Thought he was cool, then I realized what a fag he was, but it was too late. He caught me in the friend zone. He really is a huge fag, and I write all this cause I know he will read it and get mad. He is also dying, which sucks, but if I ever meet him I will, make him eat a sugar cookie, and chug a beer. That way, he will go down in a blaze of glory.

Chris - (know WAY too many Chris') aka Guru. Twinked much? This guy thinks he knows everything. When he met me he found out that sarcasm is his worst enemy. He runs around with his penis tucked between his legs for fun.

Noel - aka Triple S. I am putting a lot of faith on this guy. I am going to fly to Cali, to meet up with him, a person I have never met before and chill over there and go to E3 and stuff. I have known him over the net long enough. I do not doubt him..........................

Prower - aka Link. hahahahahahah Eagles whore. Well, this guy is cool. One of my "fight the power" friends. We like to go on chat boards and cause a scene.

Josh - aka Hiko. Is this guy even my friend? He does not talk to me, unless I start up the convo. He came to my town once, did not call or visit me. He assumes everything, he never asks. He............. is a lost cause.......

hmmmm I think that is about it. Well, no, but that is enough for now.