Cinco De Mayo
Today, it is ok to pretend you are Mexican.
I had the hat.
I had the Taco.
I had the tequila shot.
I had the tequila shot.
I had the tequila shot.
I had the tequila shot.
I had the tequila shot.
I had the tequila shot.
I had the tequila shot.
I had the tequila shot.
I had the tequila shot.
I did the wave in Don Pablos.
I had the tequila shot.
I had the tequila shot.
I competed with an old bald man to see who's shot glass tower could get the highest.
I had the tequila shot.
Is that 13? I can't tell, I am a lil gone. Walked out of there with a 33 dollar tab on just shots.
Only, ONLY day where it is fun to be Mexican.
It's fun, cause after you vomit, you realize how much better you still have it then them.
Monday, August 1, 2011
LJ3
Family Friends, and Online Peeps.
I want to list just about everyone I possibly am in contact with, within the last months or so.
Bored, confused, I do this to pass the time now........
Best friends
These are it, these are them, "The guys" "The suaves" "The swo" "La Mamertos", my inner circle, who I confide all of my deepest darkest secrets. There once was five, now just four remain(me included). We share a family bond and are each others brothers.
Gonzalo - aka, mastermind, it was he that introduced me to everyone. It is his family that also causes me the most pain.
Steven - aka, Suave, the "good looking" guys of the group. Narcissist if I ever saw one. Unique, he is...big on family ties. The only one of us that has not gotten laid before. He seriously needs it too.
Danny - aka, jap, jappy. The goofiest guy I ever met. Seriously he is like having your own personal clown by your side at all times.
Great group of friends, I love them to death. Going on about 9 years of memories.
Family
Gus - my dad, aka crazy Gus. The person who taught me the joys of alcohol. He never had it easy and he is tortured by the fact that he could not give me and my brother... "the world."
Grace - my mom, aka mommy? I dunno, she constantly tries to blame things on me, so sad that it has become funny. She see's her rich sister and wants her life like that, only she can't. A never ending losing struggle I do not get involved with.
Stephen - my brother, my blood. He sees my dad and wishes to be like him. I can see my Dad's pride and foolishness in the actions he does. He is young, the world has something big for him.
Richelle - aka Rocket, my sister. Older and more mature then I ever was, I never had a lil sister to protect, but she had always watched out for me. Even though we are not really related. She is my step mom's daughter, but we never differentiate, we are brother and sister. Whether she like it or not.
Delia R - My step mom, the person who of course was like my second mom. I love her for the fact that she could do what my mom could not. That being, deal with my Dad so that my Brother did not have to go through what I did.
Carla - aka Boli(bole-lee) My mom's sister and financially sound wife of a prosperous business man in my uncle. She runs a hair saloon that I go to when I visit Miami, free cuts of course. When I go to visit her, she always shows me off to her younger clients, making me feel like a meat on display.
Luis - aka Theo Lui, the other half of the saloon, he has a horse ranch and lots of money. He also deals in real estate and constantly has his family move from house to house. I once remember him coloring his hair Blue. He is a goof.
Jihan - my cousin from Luis and Carla. The girl who I spent a whole lot of time teaching me about the opposite sex. We grew up real close and still are. Still she has been older then me and is not someone I can go around protecting.
Andy - My other cousin, the older brother to Jihan. A very responsible hard working man who earned his high paying job. Supports a family with three kids, but is currently dealing with a divorce.
Theo Tito - aka Dumas(real name) My mom's Brother. A real senior in every aspect of his life. He is laid back and enjoys retirement.
Sandra - aka Tito's wife. Hmmmmm
Titico - aka Tito Jr. My cousin who was like my bigger brother, he was always picking on me and making me cry. Ah, but when we teamed up on my lil brother, my lord how fun that was......... He now is married and has two kids.
Nana - My grandmother, real name Adelina Fuentes. Probably the person I love most in this world. Yet, as sweet as that sound, she is also the person who I least like being around. She has Alzheimer's and has completely forgotten about me. I wear her chain around my neck, just the thought of this is making me tear up......
This is gonna take awhile...I might make the descriptions less detailed...........
Mark - My sister's husband. He looks like a bear and his favorite team are the bears, coincidence I think not.
Theo Johnny - The owner of my families liquor store, me and him have become closer since me turning 21. ^^;
Uncle Freddie - the other uncle that owns the liquor store.
Francis - My aunt, disney whore if I ever saw one. Her house is scary.
Tim - My racist uncle, not many people like him, but his jokes are funny.
Little Tim - Tim and Francis' son. A chip off his father's shoulder.
Big Anthony - My uncle, a guitarist who used to be in a band with Hulk Hogan.
Little Anthony - My cousin and boss.
Sondra - Lil Ant's fiance, she is a person stuck in the 80's. Very fun to party with.
Frances - My cousin who I don't get to spend a lot of time with.
Harry - My other cousin, Big Ant's smallest. He has grown past the point of me doing wrestling moves to him.
Jorge - My uncle from my dad's side. He gets married all the time. Has a new wife every time I see him. He has many kids, I only stay in contact with one.
Jorgie - Jorge's son, a pot head who I don't talk to much anymore.
Poopi - Weirdest name ever, my uncle who is a clepto.
Petey - Poopi's son, and a wannabee spanish eminem, although he freestyles and it does not sound too bad.
Leo - My uncle from my father's side who is always at my mom's friend's parties.......
Lacy - Leo's daughter, my cousin who went to high school with me. The only female Radcliff that I know of....
Sarah - My other cousin that I went to High school with. Recent news states she is getting married soon.
Alexis - A person who I thought was my cousin all my life, but who I found is not. A very attractive girl, but when I see her I still see family. If there was anyone in my family that I look out for like a brother and sister relationship it would be her.
Angie - See above, Alexis' younger sister.
Lana - A friend of the family, who just started school. I see her at club's a lot and she always seems drunk.
Sarah - Another friend of the family. On my mom's side of friends, there seems to be a lack of guys my age. Whenever I go to my mom's friend's parties I am like the only young guy there.
Alicia - Another friend of the family. When I was younger she always made me do things I thought were embarrassing, but now I want to do them more. I always had a crush on her when I was younger. Now I think her friend is cute.
Courtney - Ahem, the friend of Alicia. She has always been cute in my eyes, but we almost never see each other.
Reuben - My mom's boyfriend, and the man who is living with us. He is cool, but he tends to get into arguments that are between me and my mom. He is lucky I do not mimic what he says to my dad.
hahahaha that was just mostly family and friends of the family. Now onto my friends families.
Don Gonzalo - aka the Don. Gonzalo's dad and the only man to ever say "Fuck You Sir" and make everyone laugh in fear.
Sandra - Gonzalo's mom and a devoted, super devoted church go'er.
Delia V - Gonzalo's sister. The person who mocks everything I wear. She hates my wardrobe, and pisses me off when she comments about it. Also the person who tells me, that me and Jessy, will never work......
Avi - Delia's husband and the best Reggaton dancer in the family.
Luisito - Avi's nephew. A new comer into the family, he seems cool. Needs help with dancing though.
Christopher - Delia's baby boy. A real cutie.
Anthony - Delia's other kid.
Carrie - Gonzalo's other sister. A more laid back, family oriented person. She is very nice and does my eyesbrows when they get too Cuban.
Glenn - Carrie's Husband. Ex Soldier and an all around cool guy.
Victor - Gonzalo's brother. A Coast guard who acts very much like one of the guys. He likes me, I think, that is until I get around his daughter.
Jessica - Why did I ever meet this girl. Gonzalo's niece, who for the longest time had a crush on me, but I knew this and I could not touch her. Why? Cause this was around the time I was 15 and she was.....12. I then started to get feelings for her and I had to hide them. The family would always watch me, cause at the time, all they knew about me was that I was the son of a Drunk. Time came when everyone knew, when I was about 18, at the time she was too young. She could not handle a long distance relationship. So, I did not wait. I could not I was young and horny, but I repressed my feelings for her. I hid them deep in my inner memory so when I saw her for every family function I wouldn't go crazy. When she finally turned 18 the family all knew I liked her and now wanted me to move forward with her. I still had no news on what she thought of me, so still my feelings stayed dormant. This past New Years, something happened and she confessed that she loved me. Her words, the words I longed to hear. So that is when all my feelings came out. I was happy, I thought she was finally ready, but as recent surveys have showed...she was not. Who knows if she will ever be now. She is still young and naive, so I won't discredit her for this. But, I waited a long time, I do not know how long I can keep this up. She is still my friend, I will not become an ass to her for this. I will be the person she has know, if that is someone she does not want to be with, then I am sorry. I will not change.
*sigh* Onto more family and friend's yay!
Albert - Danny's uncle and my pastor. A real father figure and devoted husband and all around great guy.
Cherry - Albert's wife. Another hard core church go'er.
Natalie - Albert's oldest daughter. She is big on the church stuff too.
Christina - Middle daughter of Albert. We are doing her quince at the moment.
Angelica - The youngest of Albert's daughters.
Luis - Danny's dad. A goofy pastor and another fun dad to be around.
Anita - Danny's mom. Normal mom I guess, married into a family of japs.
Justin - Danny's brother, akak Sea Bass aka Jappy Jr. The kid we used to torment when he was younger by showing hima ll that there was to know about sex when he was like 10.
Nickie - Danny's Sister. Who now is younger then me and has a kid.
Jose - Nickies husband, though we don't know for how long. He like to smoke.
Sergio - Delia's ex husband and father of Chris and Anthony. Was once in our clique, but now after the divorce has grown apart from all of us.
Shugi - aka, sugardaddy. Danny's cousin who by some strange logic related to me, so that makes me and danny distant distant distant cousins.
Maria - Steven's mom. El Diablo. I think this lady both hates me and loves me at the same time. I drive her insane, but I like to.
Rudy- Steven's dad. Creator of the awesome drink. "Fruity Rudy"
Jackie - Steven's sister, who kinda gets on my nerves at times, but ya that kinda makes her feel like a sister to me.
Gary - Friend of the family who comes to visit every so often. He is a cool person who DJ's.
Joey - Gary's brother. The gayest straight man ever, but damn he can dance good. Or, that I think the way he dances is neat. Either way it looks extremely homosexual, but he is cool. If that makes sense. hahaha
Chris - My smoking friend who lives in the wood with me. He is a real laid back cat.
Andre - About the only person from high school that I still hang out with.
Kristen - Someone I worked with, who is now single. A real REAL attractive girl, but from the looks of it she is talking to someone already. *tear*
and now people I have met online who are close to me
AJ - aka Lacks. From all the people I have met online this loser is my closest friend. He likes to draw and shit. I don't think I have been called a fag more by any other person.
Ryan - aka Fezz. Another good friend of mine. Is a real ladies man, watch out for him when he hits the dance floor. Will Smith would be proud.
Klye - aka Elky, aka Magus. Lil Fezz, always fun to hang out with, but recently he has been MIA.
Colin - aka kilik. The ladies man of Team Fezz. He is also like some sort of great Sould Calibur 2 player. I stole his shoes.
Derik - The biggest racist I have ever met. Also a very funny guy. Why is it that all racist are funny to me?
Ravi - The person who made. "Nigga, I'ma rape yo ass," a funny one liner. He of course "gots" me all the time.
Chris - aka faggot fuck, aka Twist. Ok, met him through Ravi who I met through AJ. Although this guy lives in my town and I am now part of his poker crew. He is super fast when he is drunk.
Jimmy - Chris' brother and poker wizard. He knows all the percentages of every hand. I am not entirely sure if that is something to be proud of.
Daniel - Friend of Chris who I became friends with after spending so much time staring him down across the poker table. I believe he is the only person who I was introduced to, while he was naked.
Caleb - Friend of Daniels, real nice guy.
Thomas - Friend of Daniels, brags about how many women he has slept with all the time. I believe him since he is like an ADD person. His numbers range in the 150's........
Mike - The asian guy we play poker with. He leaves his dandruff on the table. It is very nasty.
Nick - aka PMA. A really huge skater nerd who thinks his shit does not stink. He lives in Colorado and came all the way down to Florida to visit me. He really is a huge dork, but I guess that is him charm.
Brandon - aka Drl. Met him on AN. Thought he was cool, then I realized what a fag he was, but it was too late. He caught me in the friend zone. He really is a huge fag, and I write all this cause I know he will read it and get mad. He is also dying, which sucks, but if I ever meet him I will, make him eat a sugar cookie, and chug a beer. That way, he will go down in a blaze of glory.
Chris - (know WAY too many Chris') aka Guru. Twinked much? This guy thinks he knows everything. When he met me he found out that sarcasm is his worst enemy. He runs around with his penis tucked between his legs for fun.
Noel - aka Triple S. I am putting a lot of faith on this guy. I am going to fly to Cali, to meet up with him, a person I have never met before and chill over there and go to E3 and stuff. I have known him over the net long enough. I do not doubt him..........................
Prower - aka Link. hahahahahahah Eagles whore. Well, this guy is cool. One of my "fight the power" friends. We like to go on chat boards and cause a scene.
Josh - aka Hiko. Is this guy even my friend? He does not talk to me, unless I start up the convo. He came to my town once, did not call or visit me. He assumes everything, he never asks. He............. is a lost cause.......
hmmmm I think that is about it. Well, no, but that is enough for now.
I want to list just about everyone I possibly am in contact with, within the last months or so.
Bored, confused, I do this to pass the time now........
Best friends
These are it, these are them, "The guys" "The suaves" "The swo" "La Mamertos", my inner circle, who I confide all of my deepest darkest secrets. There once was five, now just four remain(me included). We share a family bond and are each others brothers.
Gonzalo - aka, mastermind, it was he that introduced me to everyone. It is his family that also causes me the most pain.
Steven - aka, Suave, the "good looking" guys of the group. Narcissist if I ever saw one. Unique, he is...big on family ties. The only one of us that has not gotten laid before. He seriously needs it too.
Danny - aka, jap, jappy. The goofiest guy I ever met. Seriously he is like having your own personal clown by your side at all times.
Great group of friends, I love them to death. Going on about 9 years of memories.
Family
Gus - my dad, aka crazy Gus. The person who taught me the joys of alcohol. He never had it easy and he is tortured by the fact that he could not give me and my brother... "the world."
Grace - my mom, aka mommy? I dunno, she constantly tries to blame things on me, so sad that it has become funny. She see's her rich sister and wants her life like that, only she can't. A never ending losing struggle I do not get involved with.
Stephen - my brother, my blood. He sees my dad and wishes to be like him. I can see my Dad's pride and foolishness in the actions he does. He is young, the world has something big for him.
Richelle - aka Rocket, my sister. Older and more mature then I ever was, I never had a lil sister to protect, but she had always watched out for me. Even though we are not really related. She is my step mom's daughter, but we never differentiate, we are brother and sister. Whether she like it or not.
Delia R - My step mom, the person who of course was like my second mom. I love her for the fact that she could do what my mom could not. That being, deal with my Dad so that my Brother did not have to go through what I did.
Carla - aka Boli(bole-lee) My mom's sister and financially sound wife of a prosperous business man in my uncle. She runs a hair saloon that I go to when I visit Miami, free cuts of course. When I go to visit her, she always shows me off to her younger clients, making me feel like a meat on display.
Luis - aka Theo Lui, the other half of the saloon, he has a horse ranch and lots of money. He also deals in real estate and constantly has his family move from house to house. I once remember him coloring his hair Blue. He is a goof.
Jihan - my cousin from Luis and Carla. The girl who I spent a whole lot of time teaching me about the opposite sex. We grew up real close and still are. Still she has been older then me and is not someone I can go around protecting.
Andy - My other cousin, the older brother to Jihan. A very responsible hard working man who earned his high paying job. Supports a family with three kids, but is currently dealing with a divorce.
Theo Tito - aka Dumas(real name) My mom's Brother. A real senior in every aspect of his life. He is laid back and enjoys retirement.
Sandra - aka Tito's wife. Hmmmmm
Titico - aka Tito Jr. My cousin who was like my bigger brother, he was always picking on me and making me cry. Ah, but when we teamed up on my lil brother, my lord how fun that was......... He now is married and has two kids.
Nana - My grandmother, real name Adelina Fuentes. Probably the person I love most in this world. Yet, as sweet as that sound, she is also the person who I least like being around. She has Alzheimer's and has completely forgotten about me. I wear her chain around my neck, just the thought of this is making me tear up......
This is gonna take awhile...I might make the descriptions less detailed...........
Mark - My sister's husband. He looks like a bear and his favorite team are the bears, coincidence I think not.
Theo Johnny - The owner of my families liquor store, me and him have become closer since me turning 21. ^^;
Uncle Freddie - the other uncle that owns the liquor store.
Francis - My aunt, disney whore if I ever saw one. Her house is scary.
Tim - My racist uncle, not many people like him, but his jokes are funny.
Little Tim - Tim and Francis' son. A chip off his father's shoulder.
Big Anthony - My uncle, a guitarist who used to be in a band with Hulk Hogan.
Little Anthony - My cousin and boss.
Sondra - Lil Ant's fiance, she is a person stuck in the 80's. Very fun to party with.
Frances - My cousin who I don't get to spend a lot of time with.
Harry - My other cousin, Big Ant's smallest. He has grown past the point of me doing wrestling moves to him.
Jorge - My uncle from my dad's side. He gets married all the time. Has a new wife every time I see him. He has many kids, I only stay in contact with one.
Jorgie - Jorge's son, a pot head who I don't talk to much anymore.
Poopi - Weirdest name ever, my uncle who is a clepto.
Petey - Poopi's son, and a wannabee spanish eminem, although he freestyles and it does not sound too bad.
Leo - My uncle from my father's side who is always at my mom's friend's parties.......
Lacy - Leo's daughter, my cousin who went to high school with me. The only female Radcliff that I know of....
Sarah - My other cousin that I went to High school with. Recent news states she is getting married soon.
Alexis - A person who I thought was my cousin all my life, but who I found is not. A very attractive girl, but when I see her I still see family. If there was anyone in my family that I look out for like a brother and sister relationship it would be her.
Angie - See above, Alexis' younger sister.
Lana - A friend of the family, who just started school. I see her at club's a lot and she always seems drunk.
Sarah - Another friend of the family. On my mom's side of friends, there seems to be a lack of guys my age. Whenever I go to my mom's friend's parties I am like the only young guy there.
Alicia - Another friend of the family. When I was younger she always made me do things I thought were embarrassing, but now I want to do them more. I always had a crush on her when I was younger. Now I think her friend is cute.
Courtney - Ahem, the friend of Alicia. She has always been cute in my eyes, but we almost never see each other.
Reuben - My mom's boyfriend, and the man who is living with us. He is cool, but he tends to get into arguments that are between me and my mom. He is lucky I do not mimic what he says to my dad.
hahahaha that was just mostly family and friends of the family. Now onto my friends families.
Don Gonzalo - aka the Don. Gonzalo's dad and the only man to ever say "Fuck You Sir" and make everyone laugh in fear.
Sandra - Gonzalo's mom and a devoted, super devoted church go'er.
Delia V - Gonzalo's sister. The person who mocks everything I wear. She hates my wardrobe, and pisses me off when she comments about it. Also the person who tells me, that me and Jessy, will never work......
Avi - Delia's husband and the best Reggaton dancer in the family.
Luisito - Avi's nephew. A new comer into the family, he seems cool. Needs help with dancing though.
Christopher - Delia's baby boy. A real cutie.
Anthony - Delia's other kid.
Carrie - Gonzalo's other sister. A more laid back, family oriented person. She is very nice and does my eyesbrows when they get too Cuban.
Glenn - Carrie's Husband. Ex Soldier and an all around cool guy.
Victor - Gonzalo's brother. A Coast guard who acts very much like one of the guys. He likes me, I think, that is until I get around his daughter.
Jessica - Why did I ever meet this girl. Gonzalo's niece, who for the longest time had a crush on me, but I knew this and I could not touch her. Why? Cause this was around the time I was 15 and she was.....12. I then started to get feelings for her and I had to hide them. The family would always watch me, cause at the time, all they knew about me was that I was the son of a Drunk. Time came when everyone knew, when I was about 18, at the time she was too young. She could not handle a long distance relationship. So, I did not wait. I could not I was young and horny, but I repressed my feelings for her. I hid them deep in my inner memory so when I saw her for every family function I wouldn't go crazy. When she finally turned 18 the family all knew I liked her and now wanted me to move forward with her. I still had no news on what she thought of me, so still my feelings stayed dormant. This past New Years, something happened and she confessed that she loved me. Her words, the words I longed to hear. So that is when all my feelings came out. I was happy, I thought she was finally ready, but as recent surveys have showed...she was not. Who knows if she will ever be now. She is still young and naive, so I won't discredit her for this. But, I waited a long time, I do not know how long I can keep this up. She is still my friend, I will not become an ass to her for this. I will be the person she has know, if that is someone she does not want to be with, then I am sorry. I will not change.
*sigh* Onto more family and friend's yay!
Albert - Danny's uncle and my pastor. A real father figure and devoted husband and all around great guy.
Cherry - Albert's wife. Another hard core church go'er.
Natalie - Albert's oldest daughter. She is big on the church stuff too.
Christina - Middle daughter of Albert. We are doing her quince at the moment.
Angelica - The youngest of Albert's daughters.
Luis - Danny's dad. A goofy pastor and another fun dad to be around.
Anita - Danny's mom. Normal mom I guess, married into a family of japs.
Justin - Danny's brother, akak Sea Bass aka Jappy Jr. The kid we used to torment when he was younger by showing hima ll that there was to know about sex when he was like 10.
Nickie - Danny's Sister. Who now is younger then me and has a kid.
Jose - Nickies husband, though we don't know for how long. He like to smoke.
Sergio - Delia's ex husband and father of Chris and Anthony. Was once in our clique, but now after the divorce has grown apart from all of us.
Shugi - aka, sugardaddy. Danny's cousin who by some strange logic related to me, so that makes me and danny distant distant distant cousins.
Maria - Steven's mom. El Diablo. I think this lady both hates me and loves me at the same time. I drive her insane, but I like to.
Rudy- Steven's dad. Creator of the awesome drink. "Fruity Rudy"
Jackie - Steven's sister, who kinda gets on my nerves at times, but ya that kinda makes her feel like a sister to me.
Gary - Friend of the family who comes to visit every so often. He is a cool person who DJ's.
Joey - Gary's brother. The gayest straight man ever, but damn he can dance good. Or, that I think the way he dances is neat. Either way it looks extremely homosexual, but he is cool. If that makes sense. hahaha
Chris - My smoking friend who lives in the wood with me. He is a real laid back cat.
Andre - About the only person from high school that I still hang out with.
Kristen - Someone I worked with, who is now single. A real REAL attractive girl, but from the looks of it she is talking to someone already. *tear*
and now people I have met online who are close to me
AJ - aka Lacks. From all the people I have met online this loser is my closest friend. He likes to draw and shit. I don't think I have been called a fag more by any other person.
Ryan - aka Fezz. Another good friend of mine. Is a real ladies man, watch out for him when he hits the dance floor. Will Smith would be proud.
Klye - aka Elky, aka Magus. Lil Fezz, always fun to hang out with, but recently he has been MIA.
Colin - aka kilik. The ladies man of Team Fezz. He is also like some sort of great Sould Calibur 2 player. I stole his shoes.
Derik - The biggest racist I have ever met. Also a very funny guy. Why is it that all racist are funny to me?
Ravi - The person who made. "Nigga, I'ma rape yo ass," a funny one liner. He of course "gots" me all the time.
Chris - aka faggot fuck, aka Twist. Ok, met him through Ravi who I met through AJ. Although this guy lives in my town and I am now part of his poker crew. He is super fast when he is drunk.
Jimmy - Chris' brother and poker wizard. He knows all the percentages of every hand. I am not entirely sure if that is something to be proud of.
Daniel - Friend of Chris who I became friends with after spending so much time staring him down across the poker table. I believe he is the only person who I was introduced to, while he was naked.
Caleb - Friend of Daniels, real nice guy.
Thomas - Friend of Daniels, brags about how many women he has slept with all the time. I believe him since he is like an ADD person. His numbers range in the 150's........
Mike - The asian guy we play poker with. He leaves his dandruff on the table. It is very nasty.
Nick - aka PMA. A really huge skater nerd who thinks his shit does not stink. He lives in Colorado and came all the way down to Florida to visit me. He really is a huge dork, but I guess that is him charm.
Brandon - aka Drl. Met him on AN. Thought he was cool, then I realized what a fag he was, but it was too late. He caught me in the friend zone. He really is a huge fag, and I write all this cause I know he will read it and get mad. He is also dying, which sucks, but if I ever meet him I will, make him eat a sugar cookie, and chug a beer. That way, he will go down in a blaze of glory.
Chris - (know WAY too many Chris') aka Guru. Twinked much? This guy thinks he knows everything. When he met me he found out that sarcasm is his worst enemy. He runs around with his penis tucked between his legs for fun.
Noel - aka Triple S. I am putting a lot of faith on this guy. I am going to fly to Cali, to meet up with him, a person I have never met before and chill over there and go to E3 and stuff. I have known him over the net long enough. I do not doubt him..........................
Prower - aka Link. hahahahahahah Eagles whore. Well, this guy is cool. One of my "fight the power" friends. We like to go on chat boards and cause a scene.
Josh - aka Hiko. Is this guy even my friend? He does not talk to me, unless I start up the convo. He came to my town once, did not call or visit me. He assumes everything, he never asks. He............. is a lost cause.......
hmmmm I think that is about it. Well, no, but that is enough for now.
LJ2
Am I turning into a whore? Is it an outside force?
This will be a journal blog from the past two days..........also, a reminded to myself. For people reading these, I will be of course talking with names you are unfamiliar with. I will, in time, make a list of the people around my life.
Work, I find out my brother, who was going to be my partner in the future business, quit. I am left with questions of what is left for him. His car, gone, his money, depleted, his job, over. Over........a simple fight between him and my cousin, it was my brother's decision, my cousin was never going to fire him. But, stubborn as my family is, that is it for him. He won't ever work with us again. That is unless, until I take over in the next five to six years, and see him struggling, I will of course...look out for my blood, my family.
I leave work, already knowing that his position had been filled. He was not hard to replace, that is the sad thing. Our cousin is doing both of us a huge favor. I know, pride was at fault. BUT, I know that I see a very good future in this job. I will not lose it so easily. I can see my future with out my cousins help, I am naive into this huge new world of clothes. I am not yet a person suitable to work here, yet I......we were given an opportunity to prove our worth.
Anyways, I leave work. I go to my old Publix, cause I have money I need to roll up. Not any thoughts of talking to old familiar faces. I drive in there, to see Sergio walking in front of my car. He lives no where near this place, so his presence seemed odd. It truly sucks, me and him, we were good friends. Be it, he was older, we used to hang out all the time. Breaking up with Delia was also, the break in our friendship, so when I do see him I feel bad, cause we are not the same, not anymore, not ever.
I see him, and of course I do not ignore him, I really hate to ignore people. His new wife leaves him, and me and him talk as we walk into the store. Ah.................my first job. How I hate this place so much. I walk in looking busted as hell, since in the morning I worked out at Steve's house and went straight to my job like that. I love the fact that I don't have to get dressed for this job. Well, at least, not when I am working in the office. .............Ahem, anyways back in Publix, no sooner then I get in visible range of the express lane does a girl I went on a date with long ago run up to me and grabs my arm, feeling it up I had assumed. Smiling at me, saying how good I look, I am still trying, but I don't even remember her name, over her. I move on. Sergio is still spitting shit in my ear, talking of what me and "the boys" are doing this weekend. Of one thing I was sure, I was going to spend a day with Jessy, though she had, recently, been giving me a cold shoulder. I wanted to figure out what was up. He was talking up a storm, just trying to feel me again, asked about Valentines. He nodded when he heard what I did and spent for Jessy, he acknowledged what I knew. That people are blocking us from, being. I picked up my change which I had turned into fifty seven dollars and was going to walk away, of course when Sergio was done talking to me. He leaves, then, I see in the corner of my eye, this girl named Kelly. White chick, an OLD friend of mine from pre-school days. A very attractive girl too, for being white.....hah. Anyways, when I worked there, I......well used to "fondle" her a lot. She never stopped me, so I never asked questions. I get her attention and she basically stops what she is doing to run over to me to chat. Blah blah blah, I don't care what you are saying. Misses me, yeah yeah.......I am like so ready to leave. I went there to get money so I could buy Stella Deus, at the moment, in mattered more. A customer occupies her, so I make me way towards the door when she yells back, "no no do not leave let me walk you to yer car." She gave me her number in the process. The walk to MY car was odd, we did not really walk to my car. We walked to hers. she opened it, the stench of old man ass and smoke came form the 03 Jetta. She blamed it on a previous owner. I, my sarcastic ass, blamed it on her immortal love for old man sex in cramped places. Now, I think she wanted me to get in the car. I made some silly pot head joke and started to walk back, she got the hint and followed me. Hugging me, why was not I hugging back? I don't want to disappoint her when I had someone I wanted to be with more. I gave her a kiss on the cheek and we went our separate paths.
I had to think about it. There was a very large assortment of girls around me now. Wanting me:
Kristen - the girl who I used to work with at the children's place. Her boyfriend broke up with her and she was talking to me non stop.
Nelly - an old High school fling who saw me recently and wants to hang around with me more.
Alexis - My ex cousin, who my mom is trying desperately for me to get with. Nice, cute girl, I still see her as family.
Kathy - Ok, now this one really is not an option. This girl is fifteen, but she flirts with me and I do the same. I am just saying, if I wanted to.................
Jessica - I..........would trade them all for her.
.................I did not want to think about it. I played some spanish music in my car and the time passed. I could...be the biggest whore at this time, but I don't want to get involved unless it's her. I am ready, the real question is...was she? It is a lot to ask an eighteen year old. She seemed ready, her words felt true around New Years, but a long time has passed. Has she strayed away from me?
"That will be 53.49, bro." Said the voice behind the counter, as I stood in line to pick up Stella Deus. I snapped out of my daze and paid him with my new found money, that was converted from pocket change.
The rest of the day is boring, well not for me I was playing Stella Deus all night long after I got home, for all you...yeah I guess it would seem boring.
Day 2, April 29th.......
A rush, I am awoken by the pain in my throat, the soar throat still hurting me. I get a call from Daniel, asking if I want to play Basketball. I feel, like total ass, but I heard that sweating away the sickness is good, so I accept. The game was fun, I grew way to tired entirely too early. It was fun nonetheless.
I get to work, to drive up, to see my brother's replacement. A mid twenty'ish looking woman. Very attractive. A smile creeps up on my face. Pretty women make me happy. Work flew by, until my friend Steve called me. He is my work out buddy and I usually work out with him after school, before work. He calls me, to give me.........an incentive to work out more, but to not get mad. Not get mad me thinks........that usually implies me being extremely pissed off about something. And, since I am a calmed relaxed
person most of the time, I did not have to think long to figure what could possibly get me "mad", Jessy. He then asked if I wanted to know or not, I could feel the blood rise to my head, I was playing with kittens while on the phone, so I had to put the one down or I would literally squeeze it to death. Him not wanting to tell me solidified what I had assumed in my head. Jessica, the girl who I would do anything for, had a boyfriend and did not tell me about it. Betrayal, Anger, Angst, Sadness all filled me. No tears, I was just destroyed inside. My cousin's fiance saw it all over my face. Told me to get a drink, so I did. A couple actually. Then, as I sat there drinking away my pain, I thought of yesterday, of all the potential ass I could get with out trying. I had girls giving me their numbers, begging me to go out with them, asking me to call them up when I was bored. What I could now do, was not anything sane. I was thinking of, revenge. I would, forgive me...use these other girls to make Jessy jealous. All to my advantage, I feel bad for these other girls, but I am hurt and now wish to hurt other people. It is who I am, I can not change the fact. I hope I can change one day. God, now is my youth, the time of my adolescences in sex and exploration. If my goal was to be tied down with one girl, it had been changed today. Why, why did she go behind my back, I could have given her everything. I am building my life, my career in a family established route. Whoever I get with will be set for life. I wanted her, I still do, but.........why?
I wait, thinking of how she will react to seeing me tomorrow. Act like, she has done no wrong. My thoughts are to end up not like Micheal Vick, I don't want to get Herpes. I will protect myself. At least, with Jessy I knew, she was clean. Life disgust me...........
This will be a journal blog from the past two days..........also, a reminded to myself. For people reading these, I will be of course talking with names you are unfamiliar with. I will, in time, make a list of the people around my life.
Work, I find out my brother, who was going to be my partner in the future business, quit. I am left with questions of what is left for him. His car, gone, his money, depleted, his job, over. Over........a simple fight between him and my cousin, it was my brother's decision, my cousin was never going to fire him. But, stubborn as my family is, that is it for him. He won't ever work with us again. That is unless, until I take over in the next five to six years, and see him struggling, I will of course...look out for my blood, my family.
I leave work, already knowing that his position had been filled. He was not hard to replace, that is the sad thing. Our cousin is doing both of us a huge favor. I know, pride was at fault. BUT, I know that I see a very good future in this job. I will not lose it so easily. I can see my future with out my cousins help, I am naive into this huge new world of clothes. I am not yet a person suitable to work here, yet I......we were given an opportunity to prove our worth.
Anyways, I leave work. I go to my old Publix, cause I have money I need to roll up. Not any thoughts of talking to old familiar faces. I drive in there, to see Sergio walking in front of my car. He lives no where near this place, so his presence seemed odd. It truly sucks, me and him, we were good friends. Be it, he was older, we used to hang out all the time. Breaking up with Delia was also, the break in our friendship, so when I do see him I feel bad, cause we are not the same, not anymore, not ever.
I see him, and of course I do not ignore him, I really hate to ignore people. His new wife leaves him, and me and him talk as we walk into the store. Ah.................my first job. How I hate this place so much. I walk in looking busted as hell, since in the morning I worked out at Steve's house and went straight to my job like that. I love the fact that I don't have to get dressed for this job. Well, at least, not when I am working in the office. .............Ahem, anyways back in Publix, no sooner then I get in visible range of the express lane does a girl I went on a date with long ago run up to me and grabs my arm, feeling it up I had assumed. Smiling at me, saying how good I look, I am still trying, but I don't even remember her name, over her. I move on. Sergio is still spitting shit in my ear, talking of what me and "the boys" are doing this weekend. Of one thing I was sure, I was going to spend a day with Jessy, though she had, recently, been giving me a cold shoulder. I wanted to figure out what was up. He was talking up a storm, just trying to feel me again, asked about Valentines. He nodded when he heard what I did and spent for Jessy, he acknowledged what I knew. That people are blocking us from, being. I picked up my change which I had turned into fifty seven dollars and was going to walk away, of course when Sergio was done talking to me. He leaves, then, I see in the corner of my eye, this girl named Kelly. White chick, an OLD friend of mine from pre-school days. A very attractive girl too, for being white.....hah. Anyways, when I worked there, I......well used to "fondle" her a lot. She never stopped me, so I never asked questions. I get her attention and she basically stops what she is doing to run over to me to chat. Blah blah blah, I don't care what you are saying. Misses me, yeah yeah.......I am like so ready to leave. I went there to get money so I could buy Stella Deus, at the moment, in mattered more. A customer occupies her, so I make me way towards the door when she yells back, "no no do not leave let me walk you to yer car." She gave me her number in the process. The walk to MY car was odd, we did not really walk to my car. We walked to hers. she opened it, the stench of old man ass and smoke came form the 03 Jetta. She blamed it on a previous owner. I, my sarcastic ass, blamed it on her immortal love for old man sex in cramped places. Now, I think she wanted me to get in the car. I made some silly pot head joke and started to walk back, she got the hint and followed me. Hugging me, why was not I hugging back? I don't want to disappoint her when I had someone I wanted to be with more. I gave her a kiss on the cheek and we went our separate paths.
I had to think about it. There was a very large assortment of girls around me now. Wanting me:
Kristen - the girl who I used to work with at the children's place. Her boyfriend broke up with her and she was talking to me non stop.
Nelly - an old High school fling who saw me recently and wants to hang around with me more.
Alexis - My ex cousin, who my mom is trying desperately for me to get with. Nice, cute girl, I still see her as family.
Kathy - Ok, now this one really is not an option. This girl is fifteen, but she flirts with me and I do the same. I am just saying, if I wanted to.................
Jessica - I..........would trade them all for her.
.................I did not want to think about it. I played some spanish music in my car and the time passed. I could...be the biggest whore at this time, but I don't want to get involved unless it's her. I am ready, the real question is...was she? It is a lot to ask an eighteen year old. She seemed ready, her words felt true around New Years, but a long time has passed. Has she strayed away from me?
"That will be 53.49, bro." Said the voice behind the counter, as I stood in line to pick up Stella Deus. I snapped out of my daze and paid him with my new found money, that was converted from pocket change.
The rest of the day is boring, well not for me I was playing Stella Deus all night long after I got home, for all you...yeah I guess it would seem boring.
Day 2, April 29th.......
A rush, I am awoken by the pain in my throat, the soar throat still hurting me. I get a call from Daniel, asking if I want to play Basketball. I feel, like total ass, but I heard that sweating away the sickness is good, so I accept. The game was fun, I grew way to tired entirely too early. It was fun nonetheless.
I get to work, to drive up, to see my brother's replacement. A mid twenty'ish looking woman. Very attractive. A smile creeps up on my face. Pretty women make me happy. Work flew by, until my friend Steve called me. He is my work out buddy and I usually work out with him after school, before work. He calls me, to give me.........an incentive to work out more, but to not get mad. Not get mad me thinks........that usually implies me being extremely pissed off about something. And, since I am a calmed relaxed
person most of the time, I did not have to think long to figure what could possibly get me "mad", Jessy. He then asked if I wanted to know or not, I could feel the blood rise to my head, I was playing with kittens while on the phone, so I had to put the one down or I would literally squeeze it to death. Him not wanting to tell me solidified what I had assumed in my head. Jessica, the girl who I would do anything for, had a boyfriend and did not tell me about it. Betrayal, Anger, Angst, Sadness all filled me. No tears, I was just destroyed inside. My cousin's fiance saw it all over my face. Told me to get a drink, so I did. A couple actually. Then, as I sat there drinking away my pain, I thought of yesterday, of all the potential ass I could get with out trying. I had girls giving me their numbers, begging me to go out with them, asking me to call them up when I was bored. What I could now do, was not anything sane. I was thinking of, revenge. I would, forgive me...use these other girls to make Jessy jealous. All to my advantage, I feel bad for these other girls, but I am hurt and now wish to hurt other people. It is who I am, I can not change the fact. I hope I can change one day. God, now is my youth, the time of my adolescences in sex and exploration. If my goal was to be tied down with one girl, it had been changed today. Why, why did she go behind my back, I could have given her everything. I am building my life, my career in a family established route. Whoever I get with will be set for life. I wanted her, I still do, but.........why?
I wait, thinking of how she will react to seeing me tomorrow. Act like, she has done no wrong. My thoughts are to end up not like Micheal Vick, I don't want to get Herpes. I will protect myself. At least, with Jessy I knew, she was clean. Life disgust me...........
Live journal 1
"1st gay ass post here!
Yeah, so my diary is finally fully. I need someplace to write all of my bitching on. Today is my moms birthday, I got her some roses. I thought it sweet, only to find that right when she picked em up, the stems break.
She is going to go out to eat with her boy friend. She comes into my room, preparing to lecture me on something....I just know it......
....says, "sorry I broke yer flowers, but I heard you are going out with Alexis this friday." That she wants me to act on my best behavior around this girl..........who by the way I had thought to be my cousin for like a lil over 18 years, but is not.
She wants me to be on my best behavior...............obviously my mom does not go out a lot with me.
Yeah, so my diary is finally fully. I need someplace to write all of my bitching on. Today is my moms birthday, I got her some roses. I thought it sweet, only to find that right when she picked em up, the stems break.
She is going to go out to eat with her boy friend. She comes into my room, preparing to lecture me on something....I just know it......
....says, "sorry I broke yer flowers, but I heard you are going out with Alexis this friday." That she wants me to act on my best behavior around this girl..........who by the way I had thought to be my cousin for like a lil over 18 years, but is not.
She wants me to be on my best behavior...............obviously my mom does not go out a lot with me.
My Experience at the Warped Tour
Controlled Chaos.
I did not fully understand the concept until yesterday. I confronted controlled chaos up close and a little too personal.
I did not fully understand the concept until yesterday. I confronted controlled chaos up close and a little too personal.
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Friday, July 1, 2011
Job Hunt
Oh this has been fun. I don't knwo why I can't find a job, but the search has lasted almost an entire year with no results.
I am prone to think it has something to do with my record.
Ah well....the hunt continues.
Here is a list of places I have applied to, some on multiple occasions.
Morgan Exterior. heh
Lowes
Target
AMC
USF
Dick's
Express
Coca Cola
Mariott
GNC
Best Buy
Hilton
Embassy Suites
Apple
Chase
and some more I'm sure.
I am prone to think it has something to do with my record.
Ah well....the hunt continues.
Here is a list of places I have applied to, some on multiple occasions.
Morgan Exterior. heh
Lowes
Target
AMC
USF
Dick's
Express
Coca Cola
Mariott
GNC
Best Buy
Hilton
Embassy Suites
Apple
Chase
and some more I'm sure.
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